Soul connection

[ThirtyThree1111]

I am having the weirdest experience ever. Three or four months ago my husband found out one of his friends lives in our condo complex. For a couple of weeks he was always over there hanging out and I was pretty ****ed off. I finally met his friend and noticed something different about him. When he came over for the first time he did not acknowledge me or say hi. Just walked passed me and walked out. There wasn't much of an interaction for a while I would just ignore him and not think of it. I was also kind of resentful at him for taking my time away from my husband since they were spending a lot of time together. I also was not so thrilled he was drinking with my husband because my husband has had alcohol problems in the past.

This friend is really kind and loving towards my son. He will buy him toys here and there and bring him snacks. I started to warm up to him a little bit and I started to take notice that he was seeking my approval in some way. Maybe he didn't think I liked him or something. I was pretty neutral on my thoughts and feelings. I wasn't attracted to him nor cared for his personality that much. He was just there to me. When I go back and think of our interactions in the past months we always glanced at each other...never looked into each others eyes though because it was too weird for me to do that. Soon I started wanting him around and I couldn't figure out why...maybe a "knowing" of some sort that I couldn't quite figure out. I also would think of him a lot but still neutral on the guy.
One night I had some cannabis and a huge rush of energy came over me from my heart to my sacral chakras. I then realized this guy was pretty special in my life and ever since then I have felt this crazy energy and want him around all of the time. One day we finally locked eyes for a long few seconds and I felt this intense shock in my body and time stood still and I could tell it affected him too. Everything in my body felt like jello and I couldn't breathe.
At this point I don't know what it is I feel. I feel unconditional love like he is my family or child or even a true love and a magnetism I have NEVER ever experienced with anyone in my life. This was an accidental encounter and I never thought I'd ever experience anything like this. I've had crushes in my life but nothing like this and it is a very scary and intense experience. I have no sexual attraction its purely from my heart. Every time he is around I feel this energy and it lasts for days and lets up a little bit when I haven't seen him in a few days however he is on my mind 24/7 like a crazy obsession.
Lately I have let my guard down and am trying to connect with him in a friendly way. I have experienced synchronicities and strange psychic experiences: I started seeing the number 33 a lot last summer like everywhere not just on clocks. When I met this guy I started to see 11:11. One day when he came over my son and I were working on math flash cards and the one card that was out was 11+11. My full birth day is in his phone number. My birthday is 717...whenever I ask to confirm if this is a soul bond I will see that number. He bought me my favorite snack without knowing what it was. He usually brings me cannabis (for free) and I will ask my husband to text him to see if he has any after my husband not talking to him for a couple days and soon after he'll text my husband and ask if I want some or he will just bring it over FOR ME without me asking. Or i will think of how I want him to come over and he will show up. There is a weird chemistry between us. We will just look at each other and I feel like we understand each other. We look into each others eyes. It is just hard to really get to know him because I never get time alone with him because my husband is always around. I have his phone number but I will not text him out of respect for my husband...I am just scared too. I am working on developing a friendship with him and it seems like we are connecting on that level. We are pretty shy around each other but I can feel like he wants to connect but we do not know how to.
When I see him I want what he has...kindness and loving heart. He also acts like a playful child which I usually wouldn't want in anyone but he brings me back to more innocent times. He is the type of guy that is a free spirit and goes with the flow and I am 100 more times happier with him in my life. At this point I feel like this is a very important soul connection and I won't put a label on it, but I do believe he came into my life to change me and make me happier. I have been super lonely for years because I couldn't really connect to people and not only did he come into my life but I met another new friend too at the same time that I have a lot in common with. I don't know this is just strange and I can't figure it out. I just hope it works out for the best. My husband has been threatening me with divorce since we got married and even told this friend about our relationship problems so whatever happens happens I guess. I would never cheat on my husband if I had that opportunity either. My heart is just pulling out of my chest and this guy will not get out of my head. I try to distract myself and nothing works. I feel guilty for it but at the same time I feel like there is a reason for it too beyond human understanding.