Don't even know what I am!

[Tanemon]

Originally Posted by TonySG

I have had to come to the conclusion that I am just different.

I believe very many people feel that they are unique to the point of being oddball, weird, strange. Even if they are healed and well-integrated inside.

Originally Posted by TonySG

I think I am a 'lightworker' whatever that means. I feel I have an ability to sense emotions and energy. My own and others. Which is probably one of the reasons I am good at selling.

I'm sure you do have these aptitudes - and these highly developed, sensitive aspects. They're no doubt involved with a role you play in the subtle dimensions of Earth life.

Originally Posted by TonySG

I workout a lot. I do alot of strength training and it just makes my energy boom. I can feel it makes other uncomfortable around me.

I feel this is a key to the difficulty you experience. It might not be a difficulty for some, but due to another factor, it seems to be a difficulty for you. You've built and you maintain a strong, athletic physique. This can send a subliminal cue to the other males around you that you are potentially rivalrous or even a threat. It can possibly be attractive to a good share of the females who come near you, but...

Originally Posted by TonySG

As much as I have tried over the years to not even think about it. I think I am strong but very sensitive at the same time. I dress extremely well and take pride in my appearance. I feel the opposite sex finds me very attractive but I haven't had a girlfriend in over 10 years.

Okay. No girlfriend, and this disturbs or disappoints you. But here's the thing, along with your admirable physique, at a certain level within you, you cherish a fierceness - a warrior-like image. It's there, obviously, in the avatar you've selected for your posts here at SpiritualForms. I've noticed it, and I remember that at least one other person (responding to a dream you inquired about on the Dreams forum) picked up on it. It's an attachment at an inner image (some would say, "emotional") level. So you've attached yourself to the combination of physical strength and fierceness, even if you at times consciously try to set aside or conceal the fierceness aspect.

Originally Posted by TonySG

Sorry for the rant but I am just getting to the point where I am starting to accept who I am. I am trying to embrace it.

So, yes, you can embrace it as it is - or possibly delve into what I've mentioned and resolve things in a somewhat different pattern. It's up to you. The current combination of physical strength and fierceness is an experiment. You can draw conclusions from the experiment whenever you want to.