Much Ado About Nothing

JadMo77 · #1 08-10-2019, 02:24 PM

Merry Yang Metal White Dog Thursday,

Aka "Potpourri". First view upon awakening: 4:48. That matches the numerology of one of my paranatal eclipse dates. I resonate powerfully with 44/8.

Cooking up here in the relentless Arizona sunshine. Naked as a jaybird, and in and out of cold water bath at all hours of the day and night (air conditioner still broken). My forecast for today told me to go swimming.

Wayward wife has been in my consciousness bigtime since our long phone conversation; I've begun prayers on her behalf after she told me about some health challenges. And her impoverished circumstances disturb me greatly. My heart feels a strong urge to somehow help her--but she's chosen not to be with me. VERY frustrating for a healer like me not to be able to physically treat her ailing body. So I'm doing prayers and visualizations on her behalf. As I told her yesterday: these financial difficulties will soon pass (she's graduating from RN program pretty soon).

What have I learned from this whole 7 years long relationship experience? DON'T COMPROMISE your ideals--no matter how much you feel the urge to settle for less than optimum interpersonal synergy. Never give up hope of living physically with your best available match. I'm asking this for myself--and for my wayward wife. We both deserve the ultimate life partner. I have to resist trying to salvage this marriage; my intuition earlier today told me simply "she's not the ONE".

Well, who is the ONE? Beauty? Somebody else? Although I've been given tons of clues--I still have no idea where to look. Just the (new for me) sense that distance does not enable physical companionship: whatsoever. Therefore I'm going to be a bit myopic as I look for a highly resonant life partner. Face it, residential location should work well for both domestic partners. If your home isn't working out well, then better to change it. That's my present condition.

In the past, I've moved with beloved when career opportunities presented elsewhere (2nd wife). But my first wife Diana wasn't ready to do this. So we parted amicably--and I moved to southern California (where I met second marriage partner). Eventually geography again intervened--and we again parted ways, still friends. And that is what my present wife also wants. Me too--and by God's Grace it will manifest. Leaving me ALONE--without an intimate life partner (again). Why is this condition so hard for me to accept?

Because I miss the benefits of close companionship (which can be considerable with the right partner). I don't like being all by my lonesome. A strange thing to write, considering my rich inner life and cross dimensional soul connections. There are things about being pair bonded that hold great appeal for me. God save me from compromising resonant relationship quality--just for the sake of living near someone: anyone. Yes, I feel weary of continuing to search so selectively--but it's time well spent, that will return immense rewards.

Blessings of clarity, understanding, and wisdom...

57tcjc75 · #2 08-10-2019, 04:15 PM

@ JadMO77, good to hear your writing & thoughts!
I remember you from another t.f. forum, your shares, wisdom & I agree, to share/ write is grand.
Cheers!

Marie · #3 08-10-2019, 07:21 PM

As i see it, compromise yourself, your dreams visions and goals, isnt worth it only a soul connection will do. As well as when it is you dont have to sit each others buttoms off either. How can you have a balanced in all ways relationship if you cant be alone with yourself, and be content with only yourself? Theres an imbalance there. As a relationship isnt about filling someone or someones space up, but to re late to do that, we have to be con tent to be, by ourselves.
Yet, many do like that, be with someone just to be or because others are and you dont want to be different, or similar. But in the end its not gonna be enough because nothing and noone can fill that space. Its only for you, source and your path. Not even a twin soul can and shouldnt, as even that relation is doomed if we arent whole, and content, from within. Its about sharing and growing and doung domething like a mission its not about needing. Thats a negative attachement. And, im not saying uou cant be attached just in a poditive way.
Id rather die be all alone than compromise my very own soul this way.
To just do because others do or to fill a void? Id rather die because that only creates imbalance within and without. If its not healthy and free then fck it.
You dont happen to be apache,do you .
Im dorry though about your wife and how you experience it it must be difficult. But brlieve me you ive just given bits and bops pieces for the liberation of your soul. Think about it, we need to be whole and happy by ourselves.

Marie · #4 08-10-2019, 07:24 PM

Also, id rather wait to marry someone until its clear its a healthy relationship at least. I dont understand the need to marry either its an add, not a need to.

Marie · #5 08-10-2019, 07:27 PM

I go as far id say if my very twin ray isnt healthy in a relationship with me id certainly not marry him. We need balance more than anything. Than we do anything. You learn these things more alone because you are forced to look on it. You learn to create your own life and be happy from within to see and balance whats not in balance.

Marie · #6 08-10-2019, 07:30 PM

Its true, if each segment each piece is in balance, its gonna fall down like a house of cards. Sooner or later. Im not saying perfect. I just say balance and to know yourself, well enough not to form imbalanced attachements and thinking.

Marie · #7 08-10-2019, 07:31 PM

Isnt in balance it should say

57tcjc75 · #8 09-10-2019, 01:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Marie

I go as far id say if my very twin ray isnt healthy in a relationship with me id certainly not marry him. We need balance more than anything. Than we do anything. You learn these things more alone because you are forced to look on it. You learn to create your own life and be happy from within to see and balance whats not in balance.

Marie, I agree with this that you say.. except it is SO hard to accept this when with a connection.. and that is where I find myself again.
At least this current t.f. is OK to back up & not cut off.. THAT is a change and welcome one!