Please help, not sure what's going on with me

It sounds ok to me. It would sound strange in ordinary "society" but some are
blessed with various spiritual /psychic /mystical gifts more than others. They
aren't things you should be afraid of.

Instead, be positive about them, celebrate the feelings of complete peace about
your dad. Your sister must find her own closure. It sounds as if you had a strong
spiritual bond with your dad and he's still in your firmament. It's a wonderful thing.

No surprise you have a white, silvery aura. Apart from worrying about how others regard you
(and in some ways how you regard yourself) you seem potentially
to have a most peaceful disposition.

You did say your story was the abbreviated version so there really isn't enough
there to connect you to the occult (witchcraft). It just sounds that your family
find you unusual and non-conformist. In terms of spirituality you are streets ahead
of them (not unusual for one family member to be different from others in various ways).

I'd suggest you try to consolidate. Contemplate a lot on your inner peace and
see how these various events relate to it. Be very positive.
If you feel so inclined, visualise your aura reaching out to embrace your family.
No need to make a big deal about it with them, keep it to yourself - it'll affect
your reactions to them but not in a bad way - you'll just bring calm to them all.
LOL - no witchcraft involved.

I too realised I was "different" as a child. I had appalling birth parents and
had to strike my own path away from them. I kept what I suppose these days would be
called a "magical journal" - full of weird stuff. Felt pretty isolated for a number
of years which impaired ordinary social (peer-group) development which I feel
now turned out to be a good thing. But that's a different story!

What's going on with you is something you can be pleased about! You'll find good company here.

Good luck.

♥

[Melissa Sparks]

Thanks so much everyone, I think because I've spent the longest time having to be practical and use my head is possibly why I try to rationalize what's going on around. I'm a bit of a control freak when it comes to letting go emotionally. I've spent most of my life having to compartmentalize my emotions.

I've been able to turn myself off if that makes any sense in order to function in a corporate world.

When I allow myself to feel what it going on around me then I'm both intuitive, empathetic and visual. Messages come to me through dreams, I've also seen things in that half awake / half asleep state. Other than that it's just a guy feel is probably the best way to describe it.

Sorry I probably sound all over the place but I'm forever doubting myself and when I say things out loud I sound like a crazy person

[H:O:R:A:C:E]

imo: doubting and judging (worry over sounding crazy) are mental activities;
the other posters are probably right about you looking to your heart space
for your power source.
a plan of action could begin with determining to place your mind in service to
your heart, and getting straight with yourself about what things are of value
to you... it's like 'prioritizing', but that's a mental activity too, lol.

[Sugar-n-Spice]

I would say to connect/recognise the existing connection start by observing
Just be prepared...sounds like your pretty weighty spiritually

[LibraIndigo]

Originally Posted by bluebird21

An official welcome to the witch club :) (it's the best club lol)

I too have had psychic experiences since childhood.

It's nothing to be afraid of. You seem too in your head at the moment about this. The powers come through feeling/sensing/knowing/intuition. Not thinking.

Nobody can tell you what your powers are. You can work with a guide or mentor but really this path is about intimately and deeply getting to know yourself and trusting yourself!

What is your strongest mode of receiving psychic info (empathy, clairaudience etc?)

[Melissa Sparks]

Today was spent being utterly exhausted and listless, I've just felt like she be been incredibly drained trying to be strong for my mom and sister.
I've definitely felt my Dad's presence around me quite strongly and at times I've gotten tearful.
Said to my husband I need to take some time to focus myself and be allowed to feel without having others looking on. Shame he wants to fix everything but this o need to do myself

[Zedna]

I love your psychic journey :) Thanks for sharing your story. I'm also kind of on that same trail :)
It's a good thing to meditate with grounding exercises. These will give you a strong root, like a tree. And the bigger the roots are, the bigger the crown(spiritual power and awarenes) they can support. :)

[Sugar-n-Spice]

Originally Posted by Melissa Sparks

Today was spent being utterly exhausted and listless, I've just felt like she be been incredibly drained trying to be strong for my mom and sister.
I've definitely felt my Dad's presence around me quite strongly and at times I've gotten tearful.
Said to my husband I need to take some time to focus myself and be allowed to feel without having others looking on. Shame he wants to fix everything but this o need to do myself

Try not to do away with your brain...you're going to need it :)

[Sugar-n-Spice]

Lol LibraIndigo

[bluebird21]

Originally Posted by LibraIndigo

You sayin I'm Hagrid? Lol