Just some
possibly pertinent interpretations of your 'trip', ste20man:
'Darkness' represents the
idea of
non-
being which many project is what their 'condition'
will be and so
will be what they 'experience' when they 'die'. JASG's suggestion that this might be a
kind of NDE therefore makes sense to me.
What you
actually experience in the course of your 'trip' is the very opposite of that - light (etc.) represents the
absolute being(ness) which 'shines'
brilliantly when the self's fear/dread of dissolution is
faced (by diving into it).
This 'experience' (generated by your
own 'inner' self) should (logically) 'teach' you that there is nothing to fear/dread in
that regard. The (current) scaredy-cat 'nature' of your
personality results in your having a hard time
trusting that (
very clear to me) 'message'.
My advice: keeping on 'diving' 'in'to Life (
whatever its 'color') ste20man!