Hello there, I am new here and decided to share my story.
Let me start with the fact I've never been a 'romantic soul'.
My 'journey' started 2 months ago. I am currently married to a wonderful person and we have lovely children. I believe my husband is my soul mate and I love him.
So... about 2 months ago I met someone and something happened. I don't know if it was TF meeting or it is just my imagination, but I know for sure it changed me deeply.
So when I first met this guy ( I would call him Max) on our fist 2/3 meetings I wouldnt feel nothing. I even wouldn't notice him if it wasn't for him ... He came to me, asked me something I was not that nice to him, but I wasn't bad to him ... I answered just because I had to . So during the work I noticed he would stare at me. No drama! It wasn't something new to me. Even though I am not some kind of beauty, people tend to stare at me sometimes and I never knew why? I don't have anything attractive in my look, - clothes, behavior or even in most time I am not wearing make up.
It was our 4th or 5th 'meeting' when he grabbed my hands so strongly (in order to show me something), it was so unexpected I was like WTH???
And then I felt something I never experienced in my life before ... I felt like he is draining me. Like he took all of my energy. Like on the movies, you know, when some demon touches an average person and starts to drain it's energy until there is no life in that body. Next day I got ill for 7 days.
Since then I started to feel strange things. Like when I am home I would see his face. Or I had the feeling he is next to me. Or like he is watching me through the windows... I was so confused about that. Why am I seeing this person? He is nobody to me? He is even not 'my type of men'. I don't know who he is. Am I going crazy?
We've got few more meetings and I would notice that he is watching me again with this crazy gaze. I though to myself: 'Stop looking at me, you FREAK! Your wife's sitting next to me, you think she is blind???'
As the feelings became more confused I felt like I have to share this with someone... I told to my best friend (she believes a lot in this 'paranormal' things, I am more like non-believer) and she told me that probably Max fell in love with me and he is thinking about me all the time, so that is why it't absolutely possible to feel his 'soul', and because he feels angry sometimes that he cannot be with me it is possible to feel like I am drained.
She advised me to try to make a contact out of his work place, so I did. I sent him a personal message regarding our work. My question to him was 'Hi, Max. Can you do that for me?' After two days I checked my messages and it appeared as 'read' but there was no answer. Why he didn't answered if it was just like 'Can you do that logo for me and how much it will cost?' Nothing personal. A simple :'Yes, I can do it' or 'No, I can't, sorry' but no ... he never answered to me, like he didn't care at all. So I decided that this poor guy has nothing to do with my sick imagination. I was the freak, not him!
I told to my friend and she was confused as well ... She told me: 'Try to find information on Google about this condition! It has to be something!' So I searched and ... that is how I found that 'twin flame' thing.
I got scared! I decided to run! Never saw him again!
I tried at least! Even though its too easy to run away from him in real life, I found I can't run from my imagination ... his ghost was sitting right here with me. No matter what I was doing, no matter if there was a party, no matter if I was shopping or just working ... he was there! I swear I could feel like he is right next to me.
Oh God! Why? Why me?
I am the most non-romantic person! But wait! This is actually not a romantic relationship. It's something different! And I can't understand it!
I have a wonderful husband and I love him pretty much! Everything in my life is perfect! I wasn't seeking for that! If I ever knew what would happen I would never start working in that company!
Let me tell you, that I am sure it's not 'falling in love' with someone. I fell in love with someone before and I know what is the feeling like. This time I was obsessed not because of his body, not because of his beautiful smile, not because of his wonderful sence of humor, but it's like I saw his soul through his eyes! And the love for his soul was so unconditional and FOR NO REASON! He is a stranger to me! I don't know him, I am even not attracted of his body or anything else. It's just his soul.
It's like you don't need him in your real life, but you need his soul.
When I look back at the time before our meeting I can see that there were a lot of strange things and feelings... Maybe a month before to meet him I started having episodes of euphoria.
Like when you know something amazing is yet to happen. Like when you know tomorrow you are going to a vacation and you just can't wait that moment to come... And there were all these numbers 11:11, 22:22, 4:44
As soon as I started working in another company I noticed another guy! He is always so nice to me, always make sure I'm fine and so helpful! And, people, I don't why why, you may call me crazy, but I had some strange feeling that guy has something to do with Max.
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So I kept living with those feelings for like a month.
And suddenly all of my feelings for him just disappeared. I just woke up one day and he wasn't there! I couldn't feel nothing! I was so thankful you have no idea!
I am an 'art' person, but my art isn't just my hobby! I am making a living on it, so during the 'obsession' period I was not able to work! It was like the time was stopped! In most days I would just sit and not being able to finish my work.
I was so happy all this just gone until today ... It just came back. It's not that obsessive at it was before, but I am afraid it may hit me again. And I don't want it! I just want to keep living my life as it was before the meeting!
Sometimes I feel like I am a freak. Like it's not me anymore!
I would never know if Max felt something. I will never see him again in real life and all I want is just to forget!
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