Okay, so I wanted to post this here to see if I could get a second opinion.
I was outside stargazing late at night (I do that all the time), when I saw something completely new. There was a ring of purple and green lights circling high in the sky. It seemed like it was constantly fading in and out of view though, and I needed to focus to continue seeing it. But it was very pretty and almost hypnotic. Then, out of the blue, I felt a sudden longing to be on that ship, that I knew I wasn't human. I had an irresistible urge to simply rejoin with the stars, and abandon the limited human experience, while I suddenly felt an intense curiosity about things that lied in the stars. Then, the ship almost seemed to speak to me! It told me of how they knew I was meant to join them, to further explore the universe and the human condition. When it was talking, all these violent thoughts came into my head, and I didn't feel human at all. But it felt so fascinating.
Any thoughts on this strange experience of mine?