Going to work/school naked and big monster dream

[Ladyrose92]

Dreamt I woke up late for work. It was 10am, Matt was saying not to go in but I had to as I would have got a disciplinary. I was panicking and he said just go in late and it won't count as an absence. So I rang work but couldn't get through to either of my managers and my colleague Adrian wasn't there either when I asked o speak to him. It was a woman who sounded stern and was doing a training day with all the staff. I rushed out the door and when I got to work it was more like school. I was naked and went and sat down with Sami, I felt self conscious of my body and embarrassed. Everyone was sitting on benches in teams. Jordan and Jade were on our team. Then we had to do an activity day, going to find a things to bring back at the end of the day. It was like we was inside a gothic church corridor when at the end of it a giant beast monster came out the door with a group of people. It was really scary like a demon of some sorts and ugly, it had a big bulbous nose with warts on it, it's skin looked a bluey-green, it had a hunch back and was huge, it looked evil. It saw how scared we all was and it felt like we was all children, so it turnt itself into a less scary woman although it still looked scary. It was taking us outside into a courtyard and saying things to us but I can't remember. It was like it was challenging us saying things to upset us and lead us astray from our innocence. There were other parts of the dream but I can't remember.

I don't know if it's relevant at all but when I left my home this morning there was a black cat curled up sleeping in the front garden, it woke up when I went out and looked all sleepy it was cute but don't know if that's a sign too as never seen that before.

[Michelle11]

This dream relates to what you are working on not necessarily your job or work place. I suspect this dreams relates to the fear and discomfort of letting your guard down. When we try to stop responding from our defensive coping strategies (no response from Adrian who means dark) we can feel vulnerable and exposed (naked). You may feel behind in your work on yourself or there is a worry about getting in trouble that causes a bit of panick in you. Ultimately it seems a fear of judgement is possibly what is holding you back. Judgement, being belittled or embarrassed has been a huge ugly monster of a threat because it robbed you of your innocence or your ability to be a flawed human was no longer safe. This is incredibly sad because that is not how God sees us. Humans can get very confused and offload there fear of inadequacy and judgment on us. It feels real and so we can take it in as valid when the point of life isn't to be perfect but to be flawed, make mistakes and fail then try again. It's not safe for you to be those things because of the ridicule you encounter from other humans. Just know this, humans are often sorely mistaken, God has great compassion for our faults and failings and that is all that matters. Know this and the human monster that is judgment, shame and ridicule can not longer threaten you.

[Ladyrose92]

ah that is cool and makes sense. I do fear judgement for my inadequacies, I try to do everything perfectly. I've been trying to let go of judgement, but I guess knowing that we are supposed to make mistakes and then have the choice to try again is comforting. I worry that God won't have compassion when I've acted out or whatever but I guess from what you say, there is compassion for our faults and failings. I do worry about letting my guard down and I do feel vulnerable and exposed. But If I know God has unlimited compassion then I guess what I encounter from that space is O.K. and nothing to fear. Thank you!

[Michelle11]

Yes, exactly, humans judge, God never judges. God understands how hard and scary this place is and how we are in bodies that are designed to react to fearful threats regardless if those threats are real physical threats or just emotional threats. it all feels the same to our human brain. So we act out trying to preserve our life not understanding the real reason is for protection, not because we are bad people. The goal isn't to be a perfectly loving human all the time. The goal is to learn to forgive ourselves for being human, accepting our humanity and understand that failures do not define us. No one is perfect at anything when they are learning. In many ways we are learning to be human and learning that being human means getting dirty sometimes. It's a part of this world but not an aspect of our soul.