I loved her way too much. Ouch.

[alcyone]

So this is it... Not even 12 hours ago was the last time I would ever talk to her. Not even 12 hours ago we were talking, and now its almost 2am and she is sleeping somewhere in the arms of someone else. And Im just... Kinda not able to breathe. This pain is something I would never wish on someone even if i hated them.

I thought she loved me. We talked about marrying. I know it all happened too fast, but i loved her the instant i laid eyes on her. Maybe at one point she did love me. But i realized a little bit too late how my actions were pushing her away. Now shes gone. I only realized today how i have been hurting people.... I guess i lack self awareness but it hit me hard today and i cried when i realized i had been hurting people I love because I truly believed they didnt care about me and so it would not have hurt them one bit.

I wish that i had realized that way sooner. It hurts so bad. I dont know how im going to get through this without her there. Just feels like my heart is literally gonna implode from the pain

[H:O:R:A:C:E]

you are stronger and wiser through your experiences.