feeling at peace.

[waterislife]

hey guys! i haven’t posted in a while but i have been doing some deep soul searching...i am in a TF situation and i feel like i have finally let go of the control of not being in control. I have been going through situations that have reminded me of my end goal(true happiness with my TF) and have humbled myself in the sense that i released the feelings of the unknown! I felt the shift maybe a month and a half ago and since then i’ve stopped being the “chaser” and stopped obsessing over the fact that we weren’t together currently and focused on the bigger picture. I stopped going over every minute detail wondering what i did wrong. It was almost like an “aha” moment because it was like one day i woke up and remembered i am a strong, independent woman who is and will continue to be until the end of time! I feel my power of control slowly re entering my body as it has made a huge impact on my life. I was so stuck for the longest time that this energy shift has made me happier, lighter spirited, and above all i have so much love for myself that i felt had gone when my TF initially left my life. It has been almost 15 months since he has left my life physically and i continue to send him love and light because regardless of what we have been through, this is a part of the journey and i truly needed this! I needed the separation to grow as an individual and become more open with my emotions, and as of late it’s been successful. I guess what i’m saying is that the doubt and anxiety i had been feeling is slowly going away because i know that this isn’t the end but just a couple stepping stones towards my true happiness��