Spiritual revelations

[Thegolem]

In 1999 I saw the Holy Spirit she came to me in a form that took me a while to understand. She had the head of a praying mantis, arms of a praying mantis, and body and legs of a praying mantis. She revealed in that form because she is praying for us. I realized this because after I read a prayer called Creed of the Holy Spirit, i heard a motherly voice say "i appreciate you worshipping me but never do it again and worship what i bestowed upon you" before i seen her in 1999 i had an Outer Body Experience right after my nightmare, I saw myself laying on my back on my bed then 3 giant eggs fell on top of me and i woke up.

in 2012 I created a short acrostic poem for the word You because i was wondering how we discovered it, I pondered that it was the beginning letters of 3 larger words and concluded with Your Own Universe, suddenly my head activiated like a powerful monitor turning on and i was staring at some projection of a universe with 3 purple stars. I never understood the meaning but other people also had revelations which makes me believe it had something to do with inifinity.



I had a moment where I was thinking in my room one day how to become a guide toward being an emporer, i paced back and forth until I stopped, I felt an heighten feeling go above my head and shoulders and I felt a resourceful, powerful source of energy travel through my left brain hemisphere and in a low, old, ghostly voice, in a feint fatherly whisper say 1888. I later learned it was the Father of Truth after I said the Father of Truth prayer left by saint Charble and he told me more wisdom. "Return a gift to Jesus Christ, and you will be blessed" my interpertation is the gift of eternal life through music.


One night i wanted to know what to study more into and chose Philosophy and going to New York to learn of other peoples psyche, a pink blob appeared before me as i felt my body flying towards the sky and once i felt like i reached the clouds my mind visioned a hazy blue background with a transparent pink silhoutte standing ontop of the light pink clouds with his head slightly cocked down.

One day while driving with friends i had a purple highlight block my vision for not even a second and it turned into a manifestation of the Violet Flame, I watched it for a moment move linear, then I felt my blood rush and a euphoric feeling go through me and i started rapping over 50 cent what up gangsta.

I made a sarcastic joke about the Mona Lisa, and was Host to Leonardo Da Vinci for a little bit (a detailed sketch of a skeleton with flashy orange eyes staring at me) with a feeling of something massaging my brain. I couldn't see through the skeleton my vision was shuttered ( I could only see my surroundings in physical reality). It's still a mystery why he appeared like that but it has something to do with equality and definitely more.

I saw Jesus Christ one night in my right eye, It was just a memory from my spirit because he moved very stange like he was laggy, but he spoke a few times his voice had powerful resonance, and he walked around revealing his Realm to me, it felt like a light breeze was blowing through my marrow and my molecules were vibrating like I was in the presence of a God, trurly he has power. I don't remember much but the last moment of this experience I saw him walking toward a house in as a black figure with 2 women beckoning him inside, Jesus walked past the door as the women left and it faded to black. The reason it was a black figure was because any healthy man can become a Christ, and any healthy women can give him guidance and comapny.

One day while at work in Sept. 2014 I was thinking of a fiction of an admiral going out to sea to fight the Kraken, suddenly this alien shaped like a horseshoe appears before my vision with one eye, but looked like a black shadow, he said in a raspy voice "see you in 16 years". I don't fully understand this but what I think is its a metaphor for aliens are just a fiction.

After seeing Jesus I thought to myself and asked "if he was real, does that mean?" and before i could manifest the thought "the devil" Lucifer arose from the black in a Ferrari Red color, lines created his face to make sharp points through his whole face like he was a symbol to the black. He had a big jaw and had red stars for his eyes, I believe the sharp points are a metaphor for all the individual purpose. There was a lot of sharp points.

I met Thoth because I thought "I wonder if Thoth fooled everyone wearing a mask" he appeared in a white flash snarling canine teeth. that same night I was summoned by Bloody Mary.

I closed my eyes and saw myself sideways as a gray image staring at me through imagination with pupils shaped like a cat. I concentrated on that image than it disappeared. My understanding of this is animals especially cats have concious descions and we are crooked to them.

And finally.. I saw my own doppelganger in a bronze oval shape bubble, I was running down a straight & narrow trail reading a book; thick as an encyclopedia, and had a blue cloak to the knees, and fancy blue breeches both with a silver striped design but it looked very high in fashion toward monarchy. I was running an opposite paralell to myself, I closed the book and ran even faster towards myself and disappeared from the bubble when he ran "through me". I was running on the side of road at the time as well so I just watched in amazement.. and guilt.

After all my experiences I thought of the harbringer Death and he appeared as this ghostly illusion with red eyes and said some wisdom. "Just because they are real, doesn't mean that they exist) he came before me as an illusion with red stars for eyes because he is just an illusion to me.

When i was 7 or 8 my best friend told me my eyes went red in front of her, her and her friend were freaking out but when we went downstairs she pointed at the red led light on a wireless phone base and said your eyes looked exactly like that

I wondered why Gurdjieff called his religion he created the Fourth Way, I thought it had some esoteric meaning to the Fourth horseman, as soon as i put them together I felt a surge of energy go throughout my crown and I stood up from my sitting position because it felt powerful.

Just the other day I thought of myself as a Fool mentioned on the sephiroth kabbalah and as soon as i thought that i see this ball of blueish white energy fly before me and say "Ein Sof", in a very high piched voice.

This may mean nothing but i believe these are what the 10 sefirots are about.
1. Keter Crown = Death
2. Chokhmah Wisdom= Father of Truth (Creator or God)
3. Binah Understanding = Philosophy and Psyche
4. Chesed or Gudulah Loving, Kindness, Mercy = Violet Flame
5.Gevurah or Din Power or Judgement = Knowledge
6. Tiferet Beauty or Compassion = Jesus Christ (Christ)
7. Netzach Triumph or Endurance = Technique/Mastery
8. Hod Majesty or Splendor = Thoth ( Ruler)
9. Yesod Foundation = Animals
10. Malchut Realm = Timeless

[Thegolem]

*Death appeared with red stars in his eyes*