Although I’ve been visiting this forum for a while, I’ve decided I need to write a post to share my experiences and gauge people’s thoughts on my journey so far.
It all started around five years ago when I lost my other half in a tragic accident.
I’m not going to go into detail about how it happened and the impact it had on me, however, I’d like to mention that there were some symbolic “coincidences” around people and events at the time.
As an example, on one occasion completely randomly, he spoke about his death and what he wanted for his funeral a couple of weeks prior to the accident etc.
Anyway, I think it’s also important for me to mention that the bond we had was very strong.
I mean, don’t get me wrong, I had been in love before, but no relationship or feeling had even come close to this. If you can really connect with someone at a “soul level”..well this was it.
I have always considered myself to be a very level headed person, with my own opinions and not very easily influenced so following the accident, I wasn’t attempting to “find answers”. I was completely closed off to the possibilities as it was just too painful.
However, around January/ February time this year, I woke up one morning completely overwhelmed by the dream I had.
I remember this ball of white light, travelling through outer space and heading towards the sun. I was certain that was me as I was so fascinated by all the stars and planets I could see around me.
I remember the feeling of knowing everything, like everything made sense, like I finally understood my purpose and the bigger picture. It was just so so clear to me.
When I woke up, this feeling was still there for a brief moment. I thought to myself, “I’ve got it, it all make sense now, I must not forget!”.
Literally within a couple of minutes, whatever I thought I knew, was gone and I couldn’t remember what it was. However, I was left with this strong feeling for a few days afterwards that I had this knowledge and i tried to remember it so hard but I just couldn’t.
I thought about it over and over again as it just felt so real...
Up to that point I had heard of the concepts of the soul, reincarnation, astral travel etc but I had never explored any of these subjects as to be honest, I was just too sceptical.
However, after this dream, on the off chance, I went on youtube (where all serious research takes place of course) and after watching a video, I tried to astral project for the first time.
I got to the vibrations stage within seconds. I was really surprised and a little scared due to all the symptoms that accompanied this state. However, at one point, for a split second I saw this wooden door slam shut and it felt like what I can describe as the feeling of someone physically pushing you very hard or like very strong wind blowing in your face I suppose. It was like my body was impacted and was moved by this "force" but physically I was in the same spot.
I continued trying, however, I wasn’t able to “get out of my body”.
I have since tried various things, including guided past life regression (on youtube, of course) which I’m not going to go into, as well as various other exercises in my quest for answers.
Now, in July this year, I had a very strange dream. I was on holiday so naturally, I wasn’t spending any time focusing on the subject.
In the dream, I was at this really busy outdoor market and shopping around. I remember this kid came over and gave me a gift and said this was for me. This repeated maybe twice.
I then remember I started looking around me AND above me and asking “Who is here?”.
(Which by the way indicates to me that perhaps I was aware I was in a dream and felt someone’s presence?)
Suddenly, I was standing in front of this ball of bright white light.
I felt male energy, whatever this means in spiritual terms.
I remember asking, “Do I know you?”
The response was “We have met many times, and lived many lives”.
I asked if it was my ex partner, I wasn’t certain if it was or wasn’t.
I cannot remember the response to this question, but I feel there was more conversation after this.
I then remember saying, “I struggle to remember in the mornings, I won’t remember and I have to remember this”.
The response was, “It’s ok, you will remember this time”.
As I woke up, I kept my eyes closed. I couldn’t feel my body, my ears were ringing with the loudest buzzing noise, it was like the whole room was illuminated by this very bright white light in the middle of the night with all lights in the room off.
All of this went on for a while and gradually faded away after what felt like around 2 or 3 minutes.
Needless to say, I dream and think about him a lot, and although I have experienced similar symptoms during the vibrations stage, I had never ever woken up like this before. This is what made me feel like it could have been real, like I was supposed to receive a message maybe?
I’ve not been able to get the words out of my head ever since, “ We have met many times, and lived many lives.”
I then started reading up about visits from loved ones etc but I was wondering if any of you have ever woken up like this before or experienced something similar?
Could it be astral travel or a visit perhaps? Or am I just going crazy?
In terms of my journey, I’m really determined to astral project and travel.
However, I feel there’s this barrier I hit every time which I can’t go past and I don’t know where to go from here.
I remember these experiences in third person though. Is this normal?
Also, could you share any tips on how to ensure I remember my experiences?
And to the experienced travellers, how do you go about finding someone on the other side?
I have no one to talk to so I would appreciate some opinions.
Thanks for reading.