5 of pentacles
Mushrooms/ reality can act as painkillers. Rain is cold, and rain could wash my illusions off, so I am likely to see the whole absurdity in my life. Then I am likely to start feeling pain. Living under poisonous conditions, in an uncomfortable pose, and in a narrow space, but under a good sedation
seems to be preferable to change with its uncertainty and need of additional strain.
Uh! I will make marmalade today. I don't want to do that, because I have an interesting book to read, but System insists that marmalade is the most important thing to do right now. And if I don't make marmalade, the whole System would be upset, and the System would start provoking me in order to put me into the right path. And I would pray for a new painkiller. And all that drama is likely to happen because of one marmalade. MARMELADE!