Feeling Lost

[blue flotsam]

I discovered this forum many years ago when things in my life were so bad I didn't know where to turn to for support.

I also had some very weird experiences. Anyway, over time life just went on. However, I was told back then that I am a 'Light Worker' and an 'Earth Angel'. From what I can learn I have a lot of personality traits that point to that being the case.

I am currently a care worker, which I find very rewarding and the company that employs me is highly successful with an excellent reputation and I am very proud to be associated with them. But is that it? Am I destined to struggle financially, really struggle, for the priviledge of doing a job that I love?

Everything I do for my clients comes naturally to me as I am by nature caring, considerate and empathetic, but I am struggling that no one is there for me. I had a horrendous relationship with a narcissist and am now on my own. I'm feeling as if I am on the edge of a precipice but for no apparent reason.

Not sure if anyone can actually help me. Maybe I am just wondering if anyone else has this feeling of impending doom?

[Rozie]

Not impending doom but I do know what it is like to do my 'job' which is to help people and I get assignments and I know what to do.

However, I complain because I don't get anything for myself..the things that matter to a person...

I whine and complain about that and sometimes it is almost unbearable but then I remember to have patience. Things will change, they always do and there are times where you just have to hold on.

[blue flotsam]

Thank you for taking the time to reply :)

I do have patiance but I really feel that this is a recurrent theme though my life, I suppose it is my life lesson, or one of them! I think lately I feel like a ship afloat when I need to be moored. Oh lol that sounds so dramatic, maybe I just have too much time on my hands!

[firstandlast]

Perhaps the feeling of impending doom is the sensation of something coming in which you have no reference points too--

That is what alot of light worker mythology is about, to provide a certain outlook or points of reference as we are in a transitional period to that which is so different than our expectations that we must create temporary identities in which to comfort ourselves with--

[blue flotsam]

I think I understand what you are saying.

Maybe this is my first 'Earth Angel' posting, I don't know. I do know that I am struggling, but I don't know why. Most aspects of my life are really good. I think I missed my goal and have found some kind of reward in being a carer.

[Khalli]

Ask for help and guidance from the angels.

Also you just might be where you are needed right now.

[jojobean]

Originally Posted by Rozie

Not impending doom but I do know what it is like to do my 'job' which is to help people and I get assignments and I know what to do.

However, I complain because I don't get anything for myself..the things that matter to a person...

I whine and complain about that and sometimes it is almost unbearable but then I remember to have patience. Things will change, they always do and there are times where you just have to hold on.

this describes me and my situation to a T. I sometimes get resentful that I have to do it all and I feel like no one cares at all. that Jo's got it, I don't need to bother...sort of out of sight, out of mind kind of thing.

but since I've tried to be more positive, I look for the good in every situation, which can be "trying" on some days... well I realize this is who I always was, and who I will continue to be. I do sometimes wish I could just walk away from it or that someone else will at the very least offer to help out, but it rarely or never happens. So I put on my big girl panties and deal.

[sea-dove]

Hi, Im feeling so lost too in many ways, my life is what can only be described as truely shocking but I keep it in way like this as I think to do so may help others in some way (though I dont know if its in my power to change it or not if I tried).

I too are alone and feel so extremely alone though I know I shouldnt feel this way as there are always others out there looking out for us.

anyway, best wishes to you

[Rozie]

One thing I know for sure, there aren't any mistakes. The 'what if's' are really not important..What is important is the 'is' and there is a reason for everything.

People that I consider to be 'earth angels' are those that show up when you need them. You have a flat tire, and somebody happens along to help you change it, even if it is in a deserted area in the middle of the night. These people are highly intuitive and they just end up being in 'the place' where they are needed...I know a lot of people like that and they don't consider themselves to be anything special and the world doesn't view them that way but they are always on the job.

I don't think I am an earth angel, though sometimes when someone makes a wish or prays for something then they send me. People find me, or they turn up..