The call of gods continues?

[Aki]

Best of luck on your journey, Firebolt. I must admit, you are in a very unique position, being beckoned to by deities. As strange and wary as you may feel, though, do take to heart the reminder that things like this are not without reason. If you have been called (and for years), it is very likely that you're meant to go that way. If Christians can be "called", so can Pagans.

As you gain the ability to move forward on your journey, just take it one step at a time so you become comfortable with it, and don't become frightened again. We're all wishing you the best of luck, and are looking forward to hearing about your progress and findings as you begin to find yourself. <3 <3 <3

[firebolt]

Hi Aki, I want to thank you for your kind words. I was pretty stressed about a lot of things when I wrote my original post, so this coming up again along with some new things, added on top of everything already going on got me pretty ovewhelmed. I was a bit anxious of what replies I might get too, but your post makes me feel a lot better, I really appreciate it.

I had a "shocking" experience that began it all some years ago, and is the reason I feel conflicted other than just fear of the unknown, because to this day I still don't know what to make of it. I can say though that it was one of the most intense experiences I've ever had, both in fear and excitement.