What's your personal cycle?

[ForeverRestless]

For me, personally, three years into this journey, I have reached a point where I can MANAGE the feelings of love and the pain of separation to the point where I can function normally and have "moved on" with my life, at least by outward appearances. That does not mean I have, of course, but I'm doing the best I can, considering (more on this later).

What I wanted to ask today is, for those of you who have been in separation for a long time, like myself, how long is your cycle before returning to intense love feelings for your Twin? I mean, for a while, I can push it down and ignore it/almost forget it, but it always returns with a vengeance in some way. My cycle is about once every 1-3 months. Then I get another break. Without managing to sever the connection, I imagine this will continue into perpetuity. Would love to know your own experiences.

[ssdm1]

Originally Posted by ForeverRestless

For me, personally, three years into this journey, I have reached a point where I can MANAGE the feelings of love and the pain of separation to the point where I can function normally and have "moved on" with my life, at least by outward appearances. That does not mean I have, of course, but I'm doing the best I can, considering (more on this later).

What I wanted to ask today is, for those of you who have been in separation for a long time, like myself, how long is your cycle before returning to intense love feelings for your Twin? I mean, for a while, I can push it down and ignore it/almost forget it, but it always returns with a vengeance in some way. My cycle is about once every 1-3 months. Then I get another break. Without managing to sever the connection, I imagine this will continue into perpetuity. Would love to know your own experiences.

Once I finally moved on from him (decades ago), and that took about a year, the intense love for him stopped all together. About 6 years later his parents died tragically and I had to see him, opened up the love again, but I was able to let it go much easier. I would dream of him periodically and love would open up, but again was easy to get past it (maybe a few days).

There was one particular very vivid dream of him that opened up the intense love for about 2 weeks. I found out later that he almost died during this time.

After he came back in my life 2 years ago the intense love came back immediately. Now it's pretty much with me daily (I do get small breaks of a day or two) and considering he's in a relationship, makes it very hard on me. I wish I could not love him as much as I do. I try and try, but can't help the love, lol.

We briefly texted today then the intense love really opens up for me. I then long for more contact with him.

Hope that helps some.

[happyhaunts03]

Mine varies. We parted ways in 2006. At first, once I "moved on", I was able to go 2-3 years. But, about 2 years ago, maybe 3, I started feeling strong energy from my TF and have gone through cycles ranging from, at peak, 6 months, to at it's worst, a couple of days. I have felt intense...love I guess you'd call it...for anywhere from a few fleeting minutes to 4 months. It tends to be more intense in (1) summer, as we have a lot of memories together of that time, (2) when I visit a place we've been together, and (3) during holidays.

[ssdm1]

I want to add also that my feelings of intense love for him happen in the morning when I first wake up. It's like I realize he's not there and that I may not hear from him that day. Those feelings tend to linger most of the day.

[FairyCrystal]

I have no idea as we've only broken up a month and a half ago.
But I do seem to 'feel' him more at the mo, since yesterday actually. As if he's thinking of me a lot, not sure though. Maybe it has to do with the full moon energies. If memory serves it's in Cancer, so it could have a lot of impact.

[leader_of_ten]

What positive thoughts and feelings I have now are about wanting to make peace with that individual, though this is tempered by the realization it's probably not possible, and I'd probably be better served taking the lessons I've learned, giving thanks for them, and walking away. They hate apologies (their words, not mine), so it follows that same coming from them would mean nothing. They've alluded to atonement, which I do not believe in. The milieu in which they exist (and their familial lineage) has nothing to do with making peace, and everything to do with making war. At one time I would have described it as hopeless, but now I'm thinking 'hopeful' is probably the better adjective, as 'reunion' would put me in a place where I've no business being.