Do you consider your TF journey to be a blessing or a curse, and why?

[ForgedInFire]

Well.. some of it is a curse while some of it is a blessing. I am sick of the weird and creepy experiences and i had another one of those the other night. I am not like most people here or in the tf community i have zero need for another person. So being spiritually tied to one is maddening to me. I like my freedom and since meeting that person i feel imprisoned. that has always been my major issue with this. That and the past life false beliefs i have unconsciously. It's not so easy to figure that out to heal and release.. i mean geeze.. they could have designed this "journey" so much better and efficient then how it is. But no i get to "play it out" in reality instead as i dont know what to heal from past lives.

Honestly i think its the "runners' who get it easy in this.. they get to live their lies, avoid union, stay in a mundane unfulfilling relationship and say its a "blessing". The one that actually do as not all "runners" do this..

[Shinsoo]

Mine was...meh.

There were strange circumstances around us--we were supposedly 'informed' by our guides about each other, that we didn't want to talk or even meet up, etc. This was enough ** to turn me off from the whole thing altogether. That said, I think it was for the better--i am still a trainwreck.

Also, someone else was interested in him at the time so i just smuck off into the shadows. Didn't feel like i could compete, lol

So it is all water under the bridge to me. :)

-Trinity

[Ariaecheflame]

Originally Posted by Angel44

Emeraldheart...I'm getting there!!

Me too

[Ariaecheflame]

Originally Posted by Ghost_Rider_1970

So beautifully said emeraldheart and is one of the best posts I’ve read as I completely relate!

I most definitely regard our connection a blessing (albeit I must admit I’ve evolved beyond the conventions and concepts of the definitions associated with TFs). As while my marriage didn’t survive the experience, we are still wonderful friends. Where without my catalyst I would never have gone into the nature of my very ‘Being’ or found out who I am

Pretty spot on there, Ghosty

I had a dream last night where my inner self was hugging my outer self haha... And saying to something along the lines that 'I'd arrived back to my core self'... It was like a remembering or a reuniting with that core me - I felt right at home and that is the feeling I can take anywhere with me - wherever I go and whoever may or may not be beside me on the path. It is a very satisfying feeling of fullfillment.

[Aldous]

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[BlueCat]

Originally Posted by ForgedInFire

Well.. some of it is a curse while some of it is a blessing. I am sick of the weird and creepy experiences and i had another one of those the other night. I am not like most people here or in the tf community i have zero need for another person. So being spiritually tied to one is maddening to me. I like my freedom and since meeting that person i feel imprisoned. that has always been my major issue with this. That and the past life false beliefs i have unconsciously. It's not so easy to figure that out to heal and release.. i mean geeze.. they could have designed this "journey" so much better and efficient then how it is. But no i get to "play it out" in reality instead as i dont know what to heal from past lives.

Honestly i think its the "runners' who get it easy in this.. they get to live their lies, avoid union, stay in a mundane unfulfilling relationship and say its a "blessing". The one that actually do as not all "runners" do this..

Totally relate about the "not needing anyone" or at least my life wasn't dedicated to find a romantic relationship nor to pursue one, really few people can reach this point or pass their life being content with themeselves and not needing anyone because they need to fill a hole and if someone comes that is good for them (i mean a real soul and mind match and no no it's not mainstream soulmate **). Despite i'm into this, this TF thing (or whatever is idk) left me caged i feel energetically i can't met anyone else instead to TF, i don't try to find them, they are pursuing me but everytime there is an issue (they are already in a relationship or i don't feel no attraction despite they can be a match EVERY freakin time).
Yes, this so called TF experience is a blessing in some things, a curse in some! It doesn't help that TF becomes more and more like the "perfect match", also i'm getting very similar to him in some things. There is no escape .
I cannot understand how the "runner" is totally fine in a not so satisfactory relationship (in some cases even abusive) and stay here after they tasted a more "higher" type of connection. I prefer to be alone rather in a relationship like this, it's way more liberating.

[Teddy_Broselvet]

Originally Posted by BlueCat

I cannot understand how the "runner" is totally fine in a not so satisfactory relationship (in some cases even abusive) and stay here after they tasted a more "higher" type of connection. I prefer to be alone rather in a relationship like this, it's way more liberating.

I am married with 2 young children

and

She was married with 2 young children


sometimes life sucks like that...

[crystalbutterfly]

Mine is a curse, because my twin turned out to be a real jerk.

[BlueCat]

Originally Posted by Teddy_Broselvet

I am married with 2 young children

and

She was married with 2 young children


sometimes life sucks like that...

These are less common cases but really...every TF journey is different!I would be more upset if i was married with kids while a TF is in the background, it's more heartbreaking .

[lunapixie]

Originally Posted by Teddy_Broselvet

I am married with 2 young children

and

She was married with 2 young children


sometimes life sucks like that...

That is indeed very difficult :(

My TF and I were both single, both 40 and free of any attachments when we met. And yet, here I sit without him while he is already on his third relationship since he left, which has been going on for the last three years.

Sometimes I wish I did have a husband to love and who loves me back instead of having to go through these TF shananigans on my own...

But no two TF connections are the same, right. I wish you peace and serenity with your family :)