The Lord of Light

[Rsandee]

One of my greatest struggles in my life is my connection with God, I simply can't devote myself to one religion as that would be limiting myself to just one perception of God. I want to get to know God myself and form my own perception...

...Which brings me to this song; He is, from Ghost.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4CSFkjPm0A0

This song is so hard for me to listen to, it's an amazing song and everything is almost perfect, but it makes me feel so unbelievably conflicted. I can't allow myself to fully enjoy this song because of the satanic under- and overtones. Why should the devil be evil? Why should God be inherently good? What if what I've followed all this time wasn't God at all? What if I get my strength from the devil? I'm afraid of this sympathy I feel for the devil.

He is the shining and the light without whom I cannot see...

Definitely applies to me. I had a spiritual experience last year, a ball of pure white light appeared right before my eyes in my own bedroom, it took all my grief, sorrow and doubt and it converted it into understanding and love. It appeared the morning after the death of my grandmother. My perception of God is love and light, but I understand that on the other side of this coin it translates to death. God can be vengeful as written in the Bible. What's worse, is that Satan is known as the lightbearer.

Can someone help me figure this out? I think I'm taking the right direction but these doubts are plaguing me.

[Miss Hepburn]

Originally Posted by Rsandee

One of my greatest struggles in my life is my connection with God, I simply can't devote myself to one religion...

... a ball of pure white light appeared right before my eyes in my own bedroom,
it took all my grief, sorrow and doubt and it converted it into understanding and love.
It appeared the morning after the death of my grandmother.
My perception of God is love and light, but I understand that on the other side of this coin it translates to death.

God can be vengeful as written in the Bible.

Can someone help me figure this out?

Thank you for telling us ahead of time the link has satanic undertones.

I don't have much time, but wanted to say I am sorry you have
ideas from books and religions that God is vengeful.

When you directly have an up-close and personal awareness of the Divine...
the Divine Presence..you will know that the Creator is only pure
love.
And, ps, there is no death.

Yes, seek a personal experience.
I could advise you to read the mystics...the ones that had direct contact...who's
Doors of Perception have been opened...they will confirm what I said and inspire
your heart to seek God intimately.

[Rsandee]

Thanks, good to hear that my intentions are right.

Though I think God is the one that gives us life, life that one day we need to return. I saw this in one of my dreams, I saw God from afar as a giant shadow that moved closer with dark clouds in the distance.

That dream can be found here: http://www.spiritualforums.com/vb/sh...d.php?t=104365

To summarize, I was standing near a conflict in some kind of tropical village on an island, when God approached the village the dark clouds became increasingly lighter until I saw a giant ghostly spirit bird. This bird looked somewhat like an eagle, it stopped the conflict and attacked (or teleported) some people. I ran to it and asked; "Aren't you the love, wisdom and goodness in everything that lives?" after which it stopped for a second and teleported me away just like the others.

I feel that my connection to God is much stronger when I'm dreaming, I often get these unbelievably vivid symbolic dreams.

[Jared.L]

Good questions you are asking. I think that there is no black and white in the terms of religion. God does not have to be all good and devil pure evil!