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I think im getting the hang of this...
I posted a thread a while back asking if others had had problems projecting with PTSD, and I think I'm on the right track now. My therapist gave me some tools and ideas to work with and I'm able more and more frequently to lucid dream. I started by taking control of the troubling dreams that take me to the past in traumatizing events and I talked to the people involved, then following her advice I tried to change the things that were incorrect and that seemed to help some. Sometimes I get the idea to try and visit somewhere else and see if I can AP from this, and things got confusing. I dont recall really where I went specifically because I was trying to keep focused and stay calm, which is difficult enough in the traumatic memory laden LD. I remember speaking to someone who gave me a warning about something and I sprang awake. I immediately grabbed my iphone and half awake put it in the memos. Something to the effect of people close to me seeming to be one thing but in reality are decieving me. Usually when I awake with a piece of what happened, if I write some details of it down before it disappears from my memory then I find I can recall more of it.
One thing I noticed though about emotion... When I feel myself getting angry or upset it becomes difficult to speak, and if I continue to try to speak I can't hold on to the experience any more and wake up suddenly.
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