Oh no oh no... tried to save exotic bird which came in my house when winter...

[Bubbles]

i was in a room from my house, the window was open and outside was winter, cold. somehow this beautiful exotic bird, sort of small parrot, came in and was looking for food. I somehow knew this bird would die in the winter so I tried to catch it and protect it from winter and give it food and warm shelter.

i managed to catch it and of course she wouldn't sit still but it was in my hands, I saw there was some small white bichon dog trying to mess with it but I was keeping my hands up of course.. Somehow I was no longer in my house, but somewhere at some school from my mid-grade like where I went over 15 years ago..

and few moments later as I was walking with the bird in my hand, I don't know how come but this little fkn bichon "rat" came from behind my legs and managed to bite the bird. I wasn't sure if it bite it or not, but then I saw a small red puncture around her head/neck.. and as I was watching carefully I noticed the bird was slowly dying.. I felt so sad and angry and disappointing and heart broken.. Perhaps I should have never try to catch the bird to .. save her.. and now she died, I remember in my dream as I was watching how the life was going out of this little birdies body and stopped moving. Heart breaking moment..

I wanted to go kick that little dog but of course I wouldn't do it, beating animals is not my thing. Though I noticed the bichon was attacked and in a fight with another bigger dog so I just let it be... Next thing I just opened my eyes and woke up in my bed, really sad about it...

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2 months ago or so I managed to get back in my feel-me zone and being productive towards my life goals, being in a state of happy productivity and flow. However I had postpone these things with another temporary work which turned out to last longer than expected. Now 2 months passes and the flow, momentum and habit of the initial feel-me zone related, again dissipated and I am back to square zero. And since more than a week now I don't do anything all day and I start to have regret loop for not doing anything and feel like that makes me not doing anything and the loop gets worse and worse...

Is the dream symbolizing this? I really have to force myself get back on track. But this dream.. does the bird symbolize my hopes and goals being killed by... what does a little dog like that symbolizes? For the record, I do not like bichon dogs, because they never stay still and lick you constantly.