How are you feeling?

[Aurora Borealis]

I feel exhausted, empty, hurting, withdrawn, isolated - because I can't make myself want to see or talk to people. I'm a freaking mess. With a brave smile on, for those rare and short public appearances I make these days.

Went to my brother's for dinner yesterday, attempted small talk, and said "wow, Xmas eve is only two weeks away". Everybody looked at me (actually laughing now, while typing) and my brother kindly informed me: "One, sis. It's one week."

So, yeah, I'm a little "off" too at the moment.

[SomewhereInTime]

Since my experience started up about 3 months ago, I have days where I'm sad & don't really want to get out of bed, and I just want to be left alone. I am weepy. In other words, I'm a hot mess! The way I'm feeling is so unlike me. I'm normally happy, bubbly, outgoing, and talkative. I feel empty and I miss the old me. I know eventually, things will level out. But these feelings are a first for me and I'm trying to process everything that is happening.

SomewhereInTime, I was exactly the same after I first met my TF. I couldn't focus on anything and would lose whole chunks of time - and I didn't want to communicate with anyone! It will pass, but it's pretty ****** at the time. Hugs.

[SomewhereInTime]

Thanks Liv. I am so happy I found this forum. This is hard to talk about with others, especially if they have never experienced something like this before. Hard for them to relate. For the first time in a while now, I don't feel like I'm losing my mind.

[umbridge]

dear somewhereintime, I am so glad :) This forum is a really good place.