T-Minus 3 days

Well. I only have three days left until I will no longer be around him or see him at all. And I gotta say I can already tell that nothing is going to happen from now until then. This is the furthest I've ever felt or have been from him since the whole thing began. I feel like a lunatic writing in here about him anymore because we don't even look at eachother anymore let alone say hi or actually talk. We've never even been friends really. We had a non verbal connection that lead us everywhere but together and now that connection went on vacation somewhere so far away that my radar can't even try to pick it up. Point is...I'm beating a dead horse. It wasn't meant to be, apparently. When I'm around him I just feel rejected and then happy to just be around him and then I feel ugly and like a loser and the next second I'm happy and feeling live again...its just too much. Maybe I just need to leave. Maybe its a good thing. I'm ranting, I know. But only because this feels like the end.

if you love something, set it free. if it comes back to you, it's yours. if it doesn't, it was never meant to be.

it sounds like you're doing the right thing - and i always believe things will turn out however they were meant to be. i don't always know what that means, but i do know that i have more faith in that, than in most anything else some days.

love & light to you!

Originally Posted by CJ82Sky

if you love something, set it free. if it comes back to you, it's yours. if it doesn't, it was never meant to be.

love & light to you!

This is so true. I needed these words. Thankyou <3

[VanillaRayne]

I'm feeling similarly. I really just feel like going up to him and being like, "Do you love me or not??" I get that rejection feeling too. But then sometimes the complete opposite. It's all so confusing and tiring. To be honest I'm getting pretty sick of the whole thing too. But yeah if you two were meant to be then you two will be. And know if you two aren't meant to be then you will find someone else who will make you realize why it didn't work out so don't let it get you down too much.