another day at the office

The funny thing about reality now is that I have two ways about myself. One that lives in this one "hey how you been, same ol' same ol' and the " you'll never believe what came to me last night, words fall short of describing it reality. They are both one in the same yet different realizations of what is happening. I mostly only share a little of the later with my everyday acquaintances at work because I don't want to be drug tested everyday I open my mouth. In here I feel we are all a some certain stage of awareness or another and helping get to the next level. Yes, some here are hell bent on their way is the only highway but even that is productive in itself.
We are not here to judge each other. I have a totally different viewpoint of who I was and who I am every single day almost. Once I start thinking
ah haa that's it, I have figured it out, something happens and renews with new news.

cdog we all need support on our path and sharing thoughs without being judged is the best way for us to get the ah haa experiences. I love them :-)

this made me smile as a recent focus of mine is a change in career paths. i am waiting on news and in the meantime i feel like it's "just another day in the office." i keep reminding myself to honor the work i am doing while i am here and that there are no guarantees - be grateful for the job i have while praying for the job i love to come through. :)

(and this forum is a lovely solace from the drab day at work that i am grateful to be a part of!)

[Internal Queries]

i have to compartmentalize my internal workings from my external workings ALL the time. i don't dare express to my friends and family what's going on my head. i mean, it's not like i don't recognize that i'm (for all intents and purposes according to their reality) delusional so they'd worry about me.

Originally Posted by cdog

The funny thing about reality now is that I have two ways about myself. One that lives in this one "hey how you been, same ol' same ol' and the " you'll never believe what came to me last night, words fall short of describing it reality. They are both one in the same yet different realizations of what is happening. I mostly only share a little of the later with my everyday acquaintances at work because I don't want to be drug tested everyday I open my mouth. In here I feel we are all a some certain stage of awareness or another and helping get to the next level. Yes, some here are hell bent on their way is the only highway but even that is productive in itself.
We are not here to judge each other. I have a totally different viewpoint of who I was and who I am every single day almost. Once I start thinking
ah haa that's it, I have figured it out, something happens and renews with new news.

Two-faced! No Really...I get it.

Your a corker Shannon, you are! Thanks for the smile Lanbee!

CJ, I am going through the same thing. My heart, mind, and soul are not in my current job yet I do the best I can while it is present. Without it I would not be who I am today. I've had a lot of time to reflect but I think its almost time to jump out of the nest or be pushed out. Not sure!

over in chat if ya want to join me