Life, schizophrenia, twin flamer, heeling, love

[alcyone]

To start with.. I love the world.

I love my life. I love my self. I love my mind. I love my... God given right to be authentically me. The world is my oyster, And I am the world's Muse.

So that being said let's take a walk in time back to mid 2007. Hallucinations, silver cords from the sky, alien technology, seeking for truth finding a ton of lies, stronger at the end, false twin flame, false Jesus. False beliefs.

Take a tiny step into 2018 with me. Met her. Finally. Got sick, overdosed, had stomach pumped, met myself in the emergency room one night at 11:11 pm face to face with a fear. A long held fear. And face to face with God itself. Crickets, rivers, entertainment, authenticity, love, being yourself and being cool with that, ego death/finally coming face to face to myself. no mirror needed here. I am the mirror. But I'm also...just...me...God is not a man to me anymore. Nor an eternal mystery.nor a puzzleto be solved, nor God is not to be found anywhere except for..... That moment. It spoke. It sang a sweet psalm only I could hear. Crickets, rivers, peace, oh my God I said. "What?" The nurse asked me looking at me."god" was the one word that could sumup my point. My.....life.

To be cotinued

[dianamadalina]

I am also diagnosed with schizophrenia and my tf is my Jesus.
When I went at church and heard on being lawfully to Jesus I immediately thought of having to be like that to my tf. It is just an association.