Hello, fellow entities!
I wanted to share my way of healing my traumatized soul, but before I begin, I'd like to share my story and get it off my chest; my traumas, my trial and errors, issues and so on, which may provide a further understanding of my problems. I'm sharing this so other people with similar problems can heal themselves :) If you don't want to read it, just scroll further down to read if you want to learn of how I'm healing myself if you also want to learn how to do it!
6 years ago, I became very ill; I had a urinary tract obstruction, which built a lot of fluid up inside my left kidney. It was left untreated for weeks and ended up damaging the kidney to the point that it still doesn't function very well even after the surgery and treatments I have received. My life spiraled down afterward rather quickly after that incident, I developed a severe clinical depression, anxiety, brain fog, cognitive impairment and a lot of other issues, which led me to quit school. It became so severe that I isolated myself in my room, I was completely incapable of functioning. I could barely speak or say something to my mom. At this point, I knew that I only had to options: suicide, because the pain was unbearable (I finally understood how severe depression could be), or suck up the pain and find a solution. I knew these issues were somehow connected to the kidney problems earlier, so I sucked it up. Naturally, I consulted my doctor, but he wasn't very helpful, I was only prescribed me antidepressants and antipsychotics, both of which were almost worse than the depression. Luckily, one antipsychotic managed to help my depression, to the point where I could function, although it had a very costly price, as I instead developed severe avolition and anhedonia. I quit the antipsychotic due to the side effects, but luckily the depression hasn't returned! I began healing myself with natural remedies and supplements, and my health generally improved over time. Unfortunately, I developed rheumatoid arthritis on the left side of my back, but despite this issue, I endured the pain that follows and managed to get my life back on track!
4 years later (2015), I began university, I stopped my porn addiction, and things were going very well, I even met my twin flame! Needless to say, I was genuinely happy for a long time, despite my difficulty to feel the same amount of pleasure and happiness as before! While I was sick, I was very interested in spirituality and read many things about it. I was so fascinated by it, it felt like I was being sucked into this amazing world, where possibilities were endless, and my prior limited belief system began to slowly dissipate; it was so intense that I began experiencing an actual spiritual awakening! I began seeing number synchronicities, meeting people like me, who were interested in spirituality. Too many strange coincidences happened at the time, which couldn't possibly coincidences; I heard a speech by JFK in a youtube video at the time, where he said: "Things do not happen, they are made to happen". At this point, I wanted to know more, and I wanted to know how to heal my spine and all of my other issues, and the answer I was looking for finally came to me: we are infinite consciousness, living in a simulated reality, experiencing it through the human vessel. We are creators and co-creators of reality! I was very excited by learning this and wanted to manifest a reality, where my spine was healing, so I began meditation.
Here is where the perhaps the most traumatizing part of my life happened. November 21, 2015, I came home very angry, disappointed. I meditated for 6 months, kept affirming to myself that I am healing, I AM healed, but there was still no progress whatsoever. I was so angry and disappointed in myself because I meditated through severe back pain due to my rheumatoid arthritis. Perhaps I was doing it all wrong? It kept racing in my head how I failed again to help myself, so in my anger, I did something I regretted for a long time; I meditated in a very low state of consciousness and kept those emotions throughout the meditation. It wasn't a meditation, it became more of a desperate prayer. I was praying for the universe to just grant me this one wish, please heal my back and let me feel like I did before, I was begging to please let me get rid of this brain fog, pain, avolition and anhedonia, I just really wanted to be like I used to again, I have never been in such a low state with mixed negative emotions, however, during my prayer, one of the strangest things happened: I felt something from outside move through one of my lower chakras and inside me. This thing suddenly began moving my body in a strange way, it appeared as if it was actually healing my spine?! I let it move my body, and it was doing strange yoga poses to correct my spine; I was amazed and extremely happy,
I couldn't believe this was happening! This entity kept on doing it for a long time but eventually moved my body to bed. I thanked the spirit for its help, although I could feel it didn't solve that much of my problems, so I told it that it could just leave. The next day, I woke up with a strange feeling in my body. I can't really describe this feeling, but it was extremely uncomfortable, like this dense feeling of impending doom, furthermore, I felt extremely drained and tired. I shrugged it off and went on as I usually did throughout the day, however, this sensation kept getting worse by time. I quickly realized that the entity might still be there, which scared me a little; I moved to the computer, and opened up word so I could communicate with it, and asked whether it was still there or not. Just as I thought so, I could move a feeling in my left hand, but I wanted to be sure that it wasn't me somehow, so I closed my eyes, and let the entity guide my hand to the keyboard keys, and it confirmed my suspicion. I'm cutting this short, but the conversation ended rather quickly as it revealed that it was actually a demon. This freaked me out, I couldn't believe this was actually happening. This thing threatened to use my vessel to kill my mother and brother in my sleep, so I freaked out and ran out the house. At first, I thought, this thing is going to win either way, so I better kill myself before this actually happens, I couldn't let my mother and brother die. I stormed out the house with my phone and contacted a reiki healer I have been in touch with. I was so scared that I immediately told him that about everything, he told me to relax and be calm, these entities feed off negative emotions and could only move my vessel if I allowed it. I was so scared that I begging for his help, so we arranged a meeting a few days later. Long story short, the trip cost me a lot of money, and I learned when I arrived that the reiki healer couldn't do anything to help me. I can't remember what he claimed I exactly did, but he was very angry because he thought I lied to him about something, and really scolded me. I tried to explain that I didn't lie to him, whatever he believe I did wasn't really the case, and apologized if it came off as if I was trying to lie or cover something up, but he was furious and scolded me so bad, that hit me hard because I truly didn't lie to him (I can't even remember most of the trip of whatever I was doing, I was in a very low state of consciousness), and because I respected a lot him and held him in a very high regard. After he scolded me, I felt something inside me leave, but I knew it wasn't the demon, it felt like I lost a part of myself. I came home very defeated, with the little money I had left, I tried one more thing. I found a shaman who claimed he could remove entities. At the time I was very skeptic, but I took a leap of faith and paid what I had left for an entity removal session. One week later, I was on the bus and on my way home, I suddenly felt much lighter. This feeling of impending doom suddenly disappeared, I felt clear and no longer drained, I felt energetic! I went home and saw I had received an e-mail from the shaman! I was told the demon was destroyed, and he removed 4 inbound spirits, and 2 astral parasites attached to my chakras. He cleared a tear in my aura and balanced my chakras, I was amazed, happy and grateful for the shaman's help. I was feeling empty at the time after the entity removal, the shaman explained that a part of the soul may have fragmented and left, so he performed a soul retrieval session for me as well, and one of the most amazing feelings of my life happened; I felt a long lost part of me return back home! The shaman explained that a part of the soul fragmentizes and leaves the body to spare the rest of the soul the overwhelming feeling of trauma, so naturally, I was very glad it was ready to come back home!
But brace yourselves, for it is not over yet. Sometimes soul fragments can come back without issues, although, sometime the soul fragments may still be traumatized when they return, and it was very much the case, which I came to realize much later. I experienced these strange waves coming from my body, and pain in my heart chakra, and I wasn't sure what was going on. I would keep getting entity attachments and keep getting entity removal sessions. I have bought dozens of black tourmaline and blue kyanite crystals to keep myself grounded and keep my chakras balanced. Each time I would attempt meditation, I would instantly get an entity attachment of some sort (luckily no demons again). Cellphones, laptops, and construction sites became dangerous places for me, because my aura was too weak to protect me from the EMF's, so even now I try to stay away from electronics and places which has a lot of EMF. Luckily I'm progressing, and time can heal wounds, but putting effort and energy into it yourself will yield a greater result.
If you have read so far, thank you for taking the time to read my story, I had to get it off my chest and share it with the world, I guess it's another way to heal :)
First of all, I would like to clarify that this method may not work for you, everyone is different, and I guess problems are just an effective way of leading you to whatever your destination might be, or whatever lessons you need to learn to get there. I know that I these things didn't happen for no reason, I must have manifested to because it would eventually lead to the life I desire. I learned to take 30 minutes off every day to just listen to a specific binaural beat session, which is specifically designed to heal traumas (it can be found by searching on youtube, there are a lot of different videos, you can pm me if you want to know which one I am using). Subliminal messages are included, which are written in the description. My trauma isn't completely healed, but I feel most of the issues I mentioned prior to be less severe and sometimes barely noticeable. I am not entirely sure, which one of my traumas led the soul piece to leave, but I keep affirming to myself throughout the day that past is the past, it's time to let it go, and so on. I learned that like the mind, the soul learns through repetition, and whatever you need to do to heal your soul, keep doing it every day, and be consistent. I understand if some of you may be expecting something extraordinary and might think that all of this is just bunch of ****, but unfortunately, there isn't a miracle cure for something like this, but sometimes the simplest of things can be the solution.
I apologize for the long post, and poor writing, I wrote this during the night, while I was extremely tired, but I had to share this with you guys as the next couple of weeks are very busy and I might end up forgetting it completely!
To whomever who may read this, I sincerely hope this may be what you are looking for. if not, I hope you find it one day, namaste my friends!
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