My Near Death Experience

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I'm posting my NDE as to what I actually experienced (and remember because there might be more that I can't recall for whatever reason) for those who might be interested. Also, what I learned from it. I'm doing this because I'm also interested in any one else who's had a NDE and what they've experienced and learned.

So first, a little about my background. I was born and raised traditional Christian (Lutheran). As I grew up and became educated I began to question the reality of what my religion had taught me and contemplating the reality of the existence of a God. At first in my questioning, I rejected the possibilities that a loving God would destroy everything but those on the Ark for the sins of mankind, the Adam and Eve story and virgin birth and looked at them as symbolic. Didn't much think about it after that, although I did say a prayer asking that if I was wrong to be shown so, and putting faith in if I was wrong God would let me know. After a few years, didn't give mush thought to it and finally after a couple decades came to the belief that we're born into this world, we die and that's it. Science can't find these things, so they must not exist. No afterlife, no judgement, no God. We cease to exist, and I was fine with it. All this time I still tried to apply the Golden Rule just because it's good to be a decent human being.
Then at 58 I had a heart attack. I flat lined three times. The first time I flat lined was when it happened.

I had an uneasy feeling in my chest as I got up from the computer, like I'd sit too long in the wrong posture or maybe I had indigestion. But then the pain became much more intense, so much so I knew it had to be a heart attack. It became unbearable pain, yet I had no choice but to endure it. I told my partner I was having a heart attack and at first we went out to the car as he was going to drive me to the emergency room. He couldn't "make the key work", so he called 911. The EMTs got there, put me on a gurney and wheeled me to the ambulance. The one EMT said he was going to get me stabilized before taking off. It was then everything went pitch black. I had no idea where or who or even what I was. I only knew I existed, and it was as if I had just came into existence. There was no fear. I wondered to myself "what?", not in English, but as just the thought. Suddenly from my left, plants and trees and blue sky began to emerge. I felt love and welcome from these plants...and a familiarity to them. I thought to myself in English, "so, this is the way it is!".

As the plants appeared in front of me I knew there was something incredibly wonderful beyond those plants and I couldn't wait to explore. I felt like a kid when it's the best day ever. I felt "whole" and sensed a state of being and state of reality not ever equaled in this "physical" world.

As I tried to go to explore my feet felt as if they were attached to the ground. When I looked down to see what was holding them I felt the feeling of the heart attack in my chest, but it was the action of the feeling completely without pain. It seemed to make me realize the "self" a bit. When I looked down I didn't see my feet, but like I instead was looking out into...space...eternity(?). It was like a change of scene in a movie. What I saw was like looking into the cosmos, but light bluish, misty grey. I saw a couple thin, distant lines, and one of which was slightly arched. I also saw a huge sphere, like a huge planet way in the distance. I couldn't make out any features other than it was a massive sphere...and probably not a planet or star. I have no idea what those things were or what they meant. I didn't question...I merely observed in awe.

Then I looked over to the right and slightly down. There were these features like squarish or rectangle shaped bubbles, the color of a t.v. screen when turned off. One flashed in a micro second. It was this life...so I assume the others (there were many) were my other lives. What I saw was not my life, but how society in our world has become...how people become wrapped up in their lives in attaining personal and material things and cast aside concern for others. It was at this point that within me came the knowledge I had to return to this life. I said "oh, no". I truly didn't want to return to this plane, dimension...whatever it is. I wanted to stay in that place but reluctantly accepted it. Next thing I knew I opened my eyes and saw that EMT feverishly working to "bring me back". I only thought to myself "Dog gone it...why'd you have to bring me back!". I felt that same intense, horrible feeling in my chest. But, it meant absolutely nothing. Then, I was out again. Came to in the ER for a second or two, out again until I woke up in ICCU. I knew what had happened to me.

What I learned from this is that it doesn't matter what you believe (or don't believe), but that unconditional love is the most important thing that exists. Practicing the Golden Rule has no equal, has no exceptions. That we have many lives, and the reality is not here, but in that other place. If everyone, or at least far more people, would have a similar experience, life on this planet could be a paradise.

So, that's my story. Comments and/or questions are welcome, but what I'd really like is to read other's here at SF stories of NDEs and what they've come away with because of it.

Thanks for reading!
Namaste.