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Originally Posted by Elysium
I basically feel trappe here in this existence, yet i am fully aware that life could be so much more. I really want to change who i am on some level. Im not sure what level though that would bring netter results. Perception? Soul level?
Its stressful. Im not boasting but im a pretty attractive person, with a heart that only tries to love and see the best in people. Ive been hurt and betrayed countless times. This is what im wanting to change... Im just not sure how to do that so im seeking help from some of yall spiritual people. :)
I apreciate any advice about changing these conditions.
Will try my best to reply
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the title cought my attention.
Perception maybe. Soul level change would come under soul alchemy. And it's a process of the soul element from a bronze to gold. A soul of gold!
What got me about your post, is where you sway off to start mentioning your appearance. And being hurt and betrayed.
I don't want to psycho-analyize. But I know you. We've known of each other over a length of time. Maybe different guises (you are trying different skirts on to see if one will make life better) but under the guise, you're that same soul I met many moons ago. Here.
I've always noticed it and it's obv still there. You are having a very difficult time with self acceptance. Often, and i believe it's part of the maturation process, because many, are stuck in this mental trap. That how they appear on the outside to appease others is where and how they collect their self worth which forms their acceptance of self. In a nut shell...unless the world at large accepts you, then you will never accept yourself. It all hinges on others.
"If i am pretty, they will accept me socially and even treat me well, I may even be adored due to my looks and this will feed my ego and sense of self'
but why do i get betrayed? my looks should be enough to sustain peoples treatment of me to be loyal, loving and true!
if we base our sense of self on our outside for peoples approval. Then what happens if you have a major accident? you loose looks, a limb or two, even brain coma? What happens when you age and it all sags? What happens if you got badly burnt all over your face and it's now leather looking and scarred?
Our looks, our brain, our flesh can all change dramatically in an instance. And if that's all your entire existence of self worth holds on to. then Im willing to bet 'life' would be over and its rope to hang the self with time.
that will not do. That is not acceptable. If you cant see that you are more than just your face and outer apperance, then how can and will anyone else see you>
how does it feel? To think someone is with you because they 'like' you but in reality, they are with you only because you are pretty? Only for your face, you may bore them to death with your interests, but no worries, they're only there to look at pretty. not hear what pretty has to say. And wait, oh wait....another pretty just walked by and omg she is even prettier.....ah byeeeeeee!!
You have to dive in deep and look at what makes you YOU and marks your different from all the other 'pretty' faces out there.
Why should anyone spend more than one hour with you if it's not just to admire your pretty head?
Can you list why?
what traits, character mannerisms and interests, and behaviours do you display that you adore in yourself? What makes you so interesting that someone would want to know past the face?
Give yourself the time and love to honor the 'unseen' aspects. once you got them noted and then rise them to shine, your pretty face will glow a much more attractive shine. And your energy will entice those that are aware there is something more within you to get to know.
drop the illusions. Pretty on the surface is never forever. Beautiful on the inside is forever.
To your question. Yes it is possible. Yet I have feeling that it is more a question of allowing yourself to be more you, than actually wanting to be someone else. You can always PM me if you want to explore.
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