I remeber this story.
Iím doing similar now. I work some, eat and drink plenty, work on my book, read, make love with my honey, play board games with my family.
Itís interesting that after my dark night of the soul, when I questioned the point of my existence, it led me back to where I started, but with a better outlook on life.
I may not have decided to go on my actual path, but my attitude now is much better than it was prior to being aware of it. I didnít realize how great I had itóuntil the option to throw everything and everyone away to achieve ascension presented itself to me.
Once you fear nothing, are attached to nothing, including your very existence, you are completely untethered and no one in all the Universes can control you. :)