Kundalini, Shamanism and Disorders of the Nervous System

[7luminaries]

Shivani, I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles...they are long-standing and deep-rooted.

I would do two things as fast as possible if I were you. Maybe 3.
First, I would go to a Chinese traditional medicine specialist and let them do an intake...tell them your financial situation and ask if they can let you pay maybe a few quid a month for a year or w/ever.

Tell them both physical symptoms and your bodily/psychic/emotional trauma. They can address diet and work with your energy blocks/trauma. I'm thinking personal diet/schedule/exercise guidelines, personal herbal supps for balance/healing (not expensive), and qui gong and accupuncture. They are a one-stop triage and sustainable lifeways shop.

Once that is firming up...then I would talk to a Buddhist monk or a Hindu priest who can speak to your past life experiences and connections to your current life. This is free -- particularly if you tell them you are pressed then no donation will be asked. They can often offer guidance or at least consolation and affirmation. Often, you can see what remains to be done and also what needs addressed and what your "game plan" should be for dealing with what life has presented you thus far. They can talk to you about how your physical illness or pain and/or challenging people in your life relate to karma and past lives...or, you can ask around to find one who is more specialised or gifted in this area.

Third, once you have a clear handle on all these aspects and are feeling better and in a daily groove that is working for you and helping you...then you might also go in for more advanced qui gong / pranic healing sessions that are grounded, as well as any work you do with your guides. Journaling may also serve as a grounding force. Meaning, it keeps you honest and puts a laser focus on integrity. What they call the higher level healing where you are really getting into your karmic stuff and shaping the love you are right now. It's a lot of work energetically of course, and your basic health and peace of mind come first.

Good luck and much love & light to you!
Peace & blessings
7L