Advice to someone who want to see the Grim Reaper?
The Course in Miracles teaches, that to Choose god is to Choose life.
Ego is demanding death, but ego is not of God, it is nothing. It was only a thought of your self which is different than God. That is why Ego thoughts will ask for death.
And so if you are asking for Death, you are only mistaken.
There is nothing in this world, but your thoughts, which can Hurt you.
Here is a story worth reading, and worth understanding:
http://www.citehr.com/346028-too-sha...ing-story.html
And in whichever situation you find yourself, remember, God is always with you, and you can choose him.