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Originally Posted by Unseeking Seeker
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Absolutely! There is no other way but to explore within. An overview reproduced from the poetry section may interest some:
Tantra: Kashmir Shaivism
Tantra trika
Para, para-para & apara
Like the Gunas three
The highest sets us free
Para absolute singularity
Para para interconnectivity
Apara duality
Four paths awaiting selection
As of our orientation
The first Pratyabhijna or recognition
Divine grace in prayerful meditation
The second Spanda or vibration
Resonation with the ॐ pulsation
The third Krama or kundalini ascension
Assimilation in step by step progression
The fourth Kula embracing life in elation
Each moment in the continuum celebration
These paths blend and often intersect
The truth being as we did always suspect
That divine love alone keeps us erect
Moment to moment to moment continuous
The dance of bliss within rapturous & beauteous
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The best poem yet!
I fully agree with all of it.
The "external world" really has absolutely nothing to keep my attention focused there for even a second anymore. Shiva's Maya is becoming SO blatantly obvious, I can't even entertain any notion of it in my mind as being real on ANY level of inquiry.
From a "virus" which has the whole planet on extreme alert, even though nobody can agree upon the number infected, the mortality rate or how it is transmitted....depends on which "fake news" you read, I guess.
To a disgruntled neighbour, abusing and criticising me for breaking the law regarding water restrictions when they were over a week ago and she is living in denial of that just so she can abuse people..
To my family spreading rumours about me which are not true, or misquoting others just to have me do whatever they want, until I approach the quoted person to see if they actually said what I had heard...only to find out they said no such thing.
To my Tai Chi classes being cancelled indefinitely due to "reasons unknown and no justification given".
To my ability to still walk into a crowded room without anybody noticing I am even there, just to overhear conversations "so, how will you be spending your last few days before the world ends?"
Yes, Shiva...I GET IT...it is ALL unreal...an illusion, it is MAYA... Everything is...and those who say it isn't are all just illusory as well!
So now I need to die while I am still alive, to cut it all off like a rotting albatross around my neck because people all tell me to love..to surrender to love...but how can I feel something I just DON'T? How to surrender to something I can't even feel? All I know is that the more attention I give to the illusion, the harder it becomes TO feel love...to acknowledge it and MAYA just drags me in the opposite direction of love.
I remembered and figured out something a Shaman once said to me a long time ago... spiritually, I am totally "upside down" from other spiritual people! My energy flow is totally "breeched" and I came into Ascension "feet first".
While others seek connection with all people, with the universe and Source to be Enlightened.. it is that very thing which holds me back from attaining it, so I need to separate and disconnect from everything and everyone to be totally free....and then, there will be no conception of an "I" as it relates to anything else, other than itself.
This is the whole reason Shiva has been systematically removing my attachments one by one until the last one will be the very concept I have of Shiva Himself.
I have reached that place a few times, until Maya comes back with me trying to find the politest way of saying "get lost, you're not real" without offending anyone...which is difficult.
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