How Do You Cope with a Soul Connection without Fully Letting Go?

This story resonates with me also. I met my other when I was 21. He was very immature, yet we were so pulled towards each other. We had an on again and off again thing for a few years before I finally 'wised' up and married someone else who treated me with love, kindness and respect.
I never forgot about him. It made me angry that I couldnt fully let go, even with all my intentions of doing so.
20 years later, we did meet again. It was magical and wonderful and he would ask me over and over 'what is this...why do I feel this way' I began noticing 1111 and 222, ect. I've always been spiritual and intuitive and somewhat of an empath. I could 'feel' him thinking of me...It drove me crazy! Well, needless to say, he retreated. It wasnt a gradual thing either. One day he professes his love, the next day he no longer takes my calls or texts. Nothing unusual happened that would make him do such a thing. I found I was back at square one with my feelings.
I know in my heart we are not meant to be together (at least, that's what I am telling myself now) he is there for me to learn a lesson, I know it. My head knows it...I just wish my heart would get the message and let go.
I lay in bed at night wishing I never would have met him 25 years ago.
I feel for everyone on this board, because sometimes these feelings are never ending.