Hi Sweetie!

[PeaceDove3]

Thank you Falling Leaves

[FallingLeaves]

well i been thinking
for a while
I not so enamored
of my 'twin'
for the moment
at least

some of you others
have been very nice

my life wouldn't be the same
without your influence
and I know it
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meanwhile
to be honest
I don't trust
either a her
or a me
with an each other
at this point.

all that said
I'm not too upset
either
with the little break
from all of you
that I currently have.

I don't seem to need
to be with someone
nearly as much
as I once
would have sworn
I did.

not that it is not
a bad thing
to have you to talk to
sometimes
too

little moments
can mean a lot

'nuff said.

[FallingLeaves]

i didn't mean
to make you sad

and neither
am I
feeling mad

See I too
can make this rhyme

don't you think
it just about time?
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it is just
it was giving me a headache
trying to figure out
how to relate to you

and maybe
somewhere
somehow,
I realized
I shouldn't even be trying
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Meanwhile
you keep telling me
over and over

you don't even want me.

and I learned
the hard way
I have to listen to those words

so between this and that
and maybe the other thing
it just seems
we can't be together

and maybe that is for the best.

[Nowayout]

What is your passion all about?

In truth, what is your problem?

Do you need a good doctor?

They can be hard to find, I know..

[FallingLeaves]

he being shy
because
somewhere over the horizin
he seems to see
some kind of cross
and he doesn't want to go
anywhere near

but truth be told
in answer to recent inquiries
he might say
'maybe I addicted'

you know,
like being addicted
to eating food
or drinking water
or breathing air.

you know,
just something else
it is a bother
to try to get over...


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[Nowayout]

I'm addicted to Gods Love
I'm addicted to a woman's touch
I'm addicted to my desires
Bikes
Camping
And my Son

I'm addicted...to this God granted LIFE!!
( even though it can be a two-edge kinda thing.)

Hugs Dude.

[FallingLeaves]

I like god
cool beans

[FallingLeaves]

just watching my mind
rush
to justify
whatever I just thought
to make me feel good
like I know what I'm doing
while idly thinking
isn't there some kind of meaning
beyond this endless careening
from one corner to the next?
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not sure
how much I can say
because everything I could say
just feels
so arbitrary
right now
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wandered around
in negativity land
a while
this weekend
at least when I'm there
I don't feel confused
and things make sense
and I don't have to listen
to people tell me 'no'
all day long.

Because in their infinite wisdom
people turned down every invitation i gave
to come see the view.

Now I'm just as happy though
to be left alone
and to my own devices
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thought about something you said
that it is upsetting
whenever I shut you out

well I'm sorry
but do you not know
how many
zillions of times
you did that to me
and I wasn't even able
to sit here and say
I even hurt?
much less could cry tears
for the loss of something
I've never been allowed to have?
had to just grin and bear it
one more time
time after time
and you never once cared what I felt?

And I had to praise you for that?

I'm sorry,
but honestly
you've been mean to a me
more often than not.

How do you honestly think
I would be able
to not reflect that back
to a you
sometimes?

[FallingLeaves]

so the blue girl
showed up in another dream
out of the blue
so to speak

difference between now
and earlier
I guess
being
she doesn't seem to be
stumbling around
in slumber
any more.

Seems to be
paying attention
now.

anywho
I felt nice about the dream
and about her
until a random thought
about how she doesn't want me
either
noone wants me!
came across my mind
and ruined it
and I ran off to spend the weekend
hiding away
in one place of the mind
or another.

Well the dream
did end
with seeing wrestlers
so...
I get what I pay for
I guess...

[Nowayout]

Hey, You Can Do it.