Ascension

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Yes, and there’s been no let up in that respect.

And it's just about to get even more bonkers barmy. Christmas has always been a really bad time of year for many reasons going back to very early childhood, although more recently it hasn't been that bad. The past months I've been going back to that childhood to integrate the Child Inside more fully, and that's been a stonker of a rollercoaster.

Mid-January one of the forum members is coming over from Russia for a week and she's been all excited over the trip. I've been trying hard not to get too caught up because I have this habit of second-guessing, and it's a visit I know I'm going to need a clear head for. Over the past few days I've been getting the feeling I'm being prepared in some way.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Maybe you’re right, but there is a strong group of Heep fans out there as you an see from comments on Youtube. Incidentally, have you got David Byron’s solo effort ‘ Baby faced Killer’. Very interesting, yielding some good songs and one or two insightful lyrics I feel into his experience of the Heep days.

Spirituality is where you find it at the end of the day and I dare say it's the same with Heep fans. Looking back it's something that resonated at a deep level although at the time I didn't know Spirituality existed. Nostalgia has its place and perhaps nostalgia of the Heep is a reminder of that special place they touched.

Din't know he had a solo, another one to add to the list.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Agreed, I am letting it happen as I just don’t have the time to think about it too much.

All the good stuff happens in retrospect sometimes. If our minds did its thing during the experience it would be very different and clouded. Perhaps all you need is the pure and uncomplicated experience for now.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

I'll just accept your take on that as I've had symbols and things in my 3E for the last twenty years, without me giving one symbol more importance / significance than others, if that makes sense.

Yep, it makes perfect sense. More later, but what's skewing things is your perspective. With this stuff you have to unlearn so you can relearn.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

No idea what’s going on or where it’s leading. My only barometer is how I feel / respond to things and how I feel in my body

I must admit when triangles and spheres started coming through, I was a bit puzzled / concerned that they were going down the geometry road as maths and that kind of thing I dislike intensely - I can do basic maths, excel formulas no problem as I have to for part of my work – but that aside, I’ve too many bad memories of being a kid stuck in class trying to grasp the point of fractions. Honestly, just the word makes me shudder.

I always really sucked at maths and frankly numbers make me cringe, although like you I'm OK with a spreadsheet - very rusty but OK.

This isn't the geometry you learned in school, it's Sacred Geometry and very different. The good thing is that when you understand a few of the very basics so much snaps straight into place, and even though you're into it in a huge way there's very little maths involved. Forget fractions, they're no damned use at all. All you need to understand is degrees and the Fibonacci Sequence and work from there. Those are your basic building blocks.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Re your question about was the trauma feeling any different, I was curious as to how I was going to explain the trauma to the Bowen practitioner, I’d rehearsed it a few times, trying to explain without dragging up all the details. I did it, and didn’t feel overwhelming anger or any intense feelings, just a mild agitation. And, what helps but doesn’t help at the same time – is the response you get from practitioners, which is something along the lines of a pained expression on the face and ‘oooh that’s bad”.

So with your own reaction, does it feel as though you're coming more to terms with your trauma?

I don't know if some practitioners come out with that sort of thing to make you feel a little worse so that their treatment makes you feel so much better - and make you more eager to part with your cash.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Its been another curious week. Last Sunday, I had another new symbol (I’ve posted at the end of the post). And then during the week another one ..... I noticed that both have three; in the case of the first one, three dots and the second, three lines. Not sure what the line through the three lines of the second one mean! Am I about to be struck out? I did ask during the week when I was awake at 3 am, what the three was and got the same answer, it’s me, spirit and integration except they were saying that I am fully integrated, due to putting into practice Matt’s teachings. I refuted that as I don’t think I’ve even scratched the surface. The only thing, I’m aware of that I’m consciously doing is sending out the blessings when I wake up in the night.

It’s been manic this last week. I’ve been getting into work a couple of days for 7.15 am as it’s so busy. And on getting home, it’s bath, dinner and then doing the ‘nodding dog’ routine in front of the tv until I fall into bed at 9 pm, absolutely knackered!

On top of busy work; I think I’m beginning to experience the effects of the Bowen treatment. I had several days when I felt agitated and then yesterday I felt very emotional at a few songs / things I saw on the TV, plus the odd twinge and sensitivity here and there, such as a sinus headache ( don’t normally do headaches) sensitive teeth (again don’t normally do that).

So when I sat down yesterday afternoon for a much needed kip, out of nowhere and into my third eye with earth shattering clarity, a gold pyramid. All gold, smooth and shiny. It came through with such clarity and I felt an energy from it, maybe just from the clarity, but it made me smile. And then after my snooze, noticed it was still there and a gold sphere moved to sit on the tip of the pyramid. So it seemed to me that this is the triangle/circle scenario in a deeper, more symbolic version, although symbolic of what heaven knows. It’s been there on and off ever since, sometimes with the sphere on top, sometimes not. I get the feeling, I’m intended to just go with it and not try to work it all out; which is fine with me as I’ve barely got the time to breath.

I’ve not had the time, right frame of mind to watch any of Matt’s videos either. I managed half an hour yesterday and what’s making it more intense is that I’m writing down most of what he says, a precis, but nevertheless I’m constantly rewinding and writing, so even that’s work of a sort.

It’s taken me a week to go through one video and a few days ago I started watching The Secret to Spiritual Success and in it he was talking about Alignment being the new paradigm version of enlightenment and the way to know if you are in alignment is if you are relaxed. So he said something along the lines of:

“When you’re not relaxed, it means you’re working at a faster rate than the universe wants you to work, you’re focused and attached to the outcome, trying to race to the finish line and you are continuing to go towards a physical goal or end point whilst continuing on anchoring the very energy that keeps you feeling so unfilled and dissatisfied.”

Oh darn! That’s me right now! So this is going to be a challenge to try and feel relaxed and therefore in alignment when I’m going at full throttle! To be honest, I’m not sure I’m going to be able to achieve that but I will hold it in mind and try.

Quite frankly at the moment, things are so intense, I don’t know how I’m keeping going. I’ve also got a second Bowen treatment on Friday afternoon after work.

Yes please, do relax already.

When you're going at full throttle you're only going at half speed because your focus isn't right here right now, it's being projected out towards some imaginary place you want to be. You're not there yet because you'll always be right here, and when you realise why you're here you're there. Does that make sense? There is in harmony or in tune with the Universe, looking out at what the Universe is showing you in the moment and when you see it you'll move on. If you don't see it the Universe will show you again - which is the feeling of being back at square one or lessons repeating. There is that place in your mind and not in a physical place, the place where you realise why you are here in the moment. Nature does the work, not you. You stand still and become the observer while reality moves in front of you frame-by-frame, moment by moment like a film strip.

Relaxed is right here right now; not relaxed is the energetic difference in being here and thinking you should be there.

Perhaps you haven't scratched the surface but.... If you don't know how to move your muscles how can you run? Work out how your muscles work then move on from there otherwise you'll fall flat on your face. This is the symbolism, that what you need to be more conscious and aware as you 'move'. I could explain it in terms of Phi Spirals and Fibonacci but you're not keen on them.

You're going through a lot at the moment and regardless of how fast you think you're not going you're moving at one helluva lick. You don't know where you're going, you haven't quite come to terms with what changes there are to your consciousness and there's no reference to tell you if you're going fast or slow. So, you have two simple choices. One is to fret and the other is to enjoy the ride - either way you're going where you're going either because of or despite yourself.

I'm getting very sensitive of late and the energetic changes are manifesting into the physical. I know I'm changing but I'm not even going to guess - I'm along for the ride. The emotions have gone bonkers and most of the time I'm keeping a grip on myself, but I do need to vent once in a while.

OK, very short reply to your golden pyramid and circle. Gold is the highest 'Spiritual' colour so yes, you are connecting to some high level stuff - it doesn't get any higher. The pyramids connect with the stars and they embody the Golden Mean, which is a ratio that's found everywhere in nature from your fingers and face to the planets. The great pyramid is also at the geodetic centre of the earth and at the centre of the earth grid. Just out of interest, the major European grid point is in the northwest of Scotland. One of the lines crosses close to my front door, another goes to the Languedoc in France. The pyramids are all about Sacred Geometry, energy and celestial connections/reflections.

Triangles and circles are the basic blocks of Sacred Geometry, notably the Platonic Solids which have their own properties. Your triangle should fit inside the circle with all the points touching the circumference - which all the Platonic Solids have in common. All the other Solids are made from multiples of the triangle and the sum of their angles - and they all have very specific ratios. The understanding isn't in being good with numbers (which I ain't) but in understanding what you're looking at. Building blocks, relationships, juxtapositions.....

You are where you need to be, the Universe is showing you what you need to see. When you realise that you are the answer, that you are the goal everything changes. Often it seems to be counter-intuitive but it's not because the mind is missing something, and when you suddenly remember to bring the 'something' into the equation it all makes sense. It's about reflections, if you want your left hand to move you have to move your right hand.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Do get the album Time /ELO. It’s a story album, so one track leads into another, sometimes with no gaps. It’s one of the few albums that needs to be listened to in sequence. And who can resist with opening lyrics such as this:

Just on the border of your waking mind,
There lies another time
When darkness and light are one
And as you tread the halls of sanity
You feel so glad to be unable to go beyond,
I have a message from another time .....


Patrycia

I've got ELO downloaded, just haven't had the time to listen to it just yet. And I remember being those lyrics.

With the symbols, you have ovals instead of circles so what you don't have is balance in all directions. Your points of origin (the dots) are linear and vertically in line so that represents your thinking. The top one is Spirit, the centre is your thinking mind and the bottom one is your sub/unconscious mind. The three lines means expressing outwards or manifesting - which is what's happening but the single line isn't you striking out but the consciousness linking them together. It's more of a progress update if you like.

[Patrycia-Rose]

And it's just about to get even more bonkers barmy.

Given that all this has been going on since June 2016, ‘bonkers barmy’ is my new normal.

Christmas has always been a really bad time of year for many reasons going back to very early childhood, although more recently it hasn't been that bad.

Christmas for me in recent years has become a different experience from the family gatherings we used to have. Both parents no longer here, I’ll be on my Jack Jones but to be honest, the thing I’m looking forward to the most is four days off in a row!

Din't know he had a solo, another one to add to the list.

For sure, after Heep he did various solo projects. Before getting ‘killer’ I would have a listen to it on Youtube because although it’s Byron’s unmistakable voice, by Heep standards it’s very commercial. I think those Heep songs brought the best out in his voice. There was a heavier album called ‘On the Rocks’ which I believe was the last one he did. So if you didn’t know he had solo albums, there’s an early Christmas gift for you.

Yep, it makes perfect sense. More later, but what's skewing things is your perspective. With this stuff you have to unlearn so you can relearn.

You may well be right, I must admit to being somewhat puzzled by the triangles and spheres and I tend to breath a sigh of relief when I get a aura soma bottle. It’s like coming home.

And to a very large degree, that is what’s happening with Matt’s teachings. It’s taken me a week to get through and transcribe The Secret of Spiritual Success. But each sentence seems so profound to me, there’s no way I’m going to remember it all, so as painstaking as it is, I feel it is singularly the most important thing I’m doing right now – plus, it will always be there for me to refer to.

One of things I’m liking is that sometimes he makes reference to a subject he’s covered in an early video and it’s like yes!! I’ve seen that one, I understand! And also, there’s themes that repeat, messages that repeat, that familiarity feels great.

All you need to understand is degrees and the Fibonacci Sequence and work from there. Those are your basic building blocks.

I have had a brief look at sacred geometry but things like degrees and Fibonacci sequences just sends me straight back to that kid stuck inside an empty classroom.

So with your own reaction, does it feel as though you're coming more to terms with your trauma?

I’ve felt like this for a little while; I feel distant from the trauma, it was twelve years ago after all. What seems to be clinging onto it is the body.

I don't know if some practitioners come out with that sort of thing to make you feel a little worse so that their treatment makes you feel so much better - and make you more eager to part with your cash.

Yes, I accept that. However, my antennae is finely tuned and I can sense any practitioner who is out to get my cash. In fact, I saw a homeopath just like that! Plus the fact that the pained expression could just be a genuine reaction to what happened.

You're going through a lot at the moment and regardless of how fast you think you're not going you're moving at one helluva lick. You don't know where you're going, you haven't quite come to terms with what changes there are to your consciousness and there's no reference to tell you if you're going fast or slow.

That is so true. Matt did say in one of his videos you don’t look to the outside world to see the results of your work but to the inside.

I’ve had no new symbols, quite thankful really, receiving anything other than aura soma colour combinations feels quite unnatural. I did notice though last week the pyramid which was gold, turned into black and then I seemed to get half of the pyramid black and the other half gold.

After my first Bowen treatment, I had several days of feeling agitated and also towards the end of the week, emotional and a strong wish to be with my father (in spirit).

I had my second session this Friday gone. No new symbols during it, the occasional carnelian sphere during the day. I notice that the emotional stuff has settled and I feel very neutral. So maybe it’s working on an emotional level first, who knows.

I've got ELO downloaded, just haven't had the time to listen to it just yet. And I remember being those lyrics.

Please do let me know what you make of the album, I shall be most interested.

Patrycia

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Given that all this has been going on since June 2016, ‘bonkers barmy’ is my new normal.

Normal is bonkers barmy.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Christmas for me in recent years has become a different experience from the family gatherings we used to have. Both parents no longer here, I’ll be on my Jack Jones but to be honest, the thing I’m looking forward to the most is four days off in a row!

I know a few people who are in the same mood this year, there just doesn't seem to be any real enthusiasm somehow. Even the kids don't seem that excited, strangely enough. I think most people are looking for something this year in particular. We'll still have the commercialism but for most it'll just be going through the motions. Mrs G and I will be having a very much toned-down few days but yes, the highlight is having time off.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

For sure, after Heep he did various solo projects. Before getting ‘killer’ I would have a listen to it on Youtube because although it’s Byron’s unmistakable voice, by Heep standards it’s very commercial. I think those Heep songs brought the best out in his voice. There was a heavier album called ‘On the Rocks’ which I believe was the last one he did. So if you didn’t know he had solo albums, there’s an early Christmas gift for you.

I;m certainly not the fanatical Heep fan that you are, my tastes have always been very wide and varied depending on the mood. I've dug out some of my old music and rediscovered Bachman-Turner Overdrive, boy do I have some very happy memories of that one.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

You may well be right, I must admit to being somewhat puzzled by the triangles and spheres and I tend to breath a sigh of relief when I get a aura soma bottle. It’s like coming home.

And to a very large degree, that is what’s happening with Matt’s teachings. It’s taken me a week to get through and transcribe The Secret of Spiritual Success. But each sentence seems so profound to me, there’s no way I’m going to remember it all, so as painstaking as it is, I feel it is singularly the most important thing I’m doing right now – plus, it will always be there for me to refer to.

One of things I’m liking is that sometimes he makes reference to a subject he’s covered in an early video and it’s like yes!! I’ve seen that one, I understand! And also, there’s themes that repeat, messages that repeat, that familiarity feels great.

The symbols are quite easy if you shift your thinking a tad. The triangles are two relationships working together to make a third; for instance there's you, your trauma and how it's being a catalyst for both divine intervention and your visit to the therapist. Same with your relationship, trhere's a 'third thing' happening and it doesn't matter which one is at the top or bottom. The circle merely encompasses, your sphere of consciousness if you like.

There's a relationship with you and Matt's material, which is catalysing you to put energy into writing it all down so you can remember it. So you have an energy system going on there - you're creating a critical mass. Again it's also about resonating with the material and it being so singularly important is a reflection of what you're resonating with. It's not so much the material itself (I don't think) that's important but the fact that you are resonating with it at that level. You see, regardless of how we perceive the external it's really down to ourselves and how we are internally. The external is merely a reflection.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

I have had a brief look at sacred geometry but things like degrees and Fibonacci sequences just sends me straight back to that kid stuck inside an empty classroom.

Interestingly the Fibonacci Sequence and that kid in the classroom have a lot in common and both would help you here. It's not about mathematics and classroom stuff, it's about nature and yourself. You did know that much of your body and face correspond to the Golden Mean of the Fibonacci Sequence?

Our Paths are not straight lines they are spirals, and while you might think you're back at Square One you can't be, Square One is inside yourself. Often we are taken back to the same place in order to realise greater truths, and that's where you are here - back to the empty classroom, back to the Child Inside. Take the Child Inside by the hand and walk the spiral.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

I’ve felt like this for a little while; I feel distant from the trauma, it was twelve years ago after all. What seems to be clinging onto it is the body.

Sometimes we can move past things in our heads or in our hearts but there's yet something inside that keeps us going back to that point for some reason. Often there is still something to be discovered there but there is always a reason.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Yes, I accept that. However, my antennae is finely tuned and I can sense any practitioner who is out to get my cash. In fact, I saw a homeopath just like that! Plus the fact that the pained expression could just be a genuine reaction to what happened.

The bottom line is that you're getting something from it so the rest is... disposable.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

That is so true. Matt did say in one of his videos you don’t look to the outside world to see the results of your work but to the inside.

I’ve had no new symbols, quite thankful really, receiving anything other than aura soma colour combinations feels quite unnatural. I did notice though last week the pyramid which was gold, turned into black and then I seemed to get half of the pyramid black and the other half gold.

After my first Bowen treatment, I had several days of feeling agitated and also towards the end of the week, emotional and a strong wish to be with my father (in spirit).

I had my second session this Friday gone. No new symbols during it, the occasional carnelian sphere during the day. I notice that the emotional stuff has settled and I feel very neutral. So maybe it’s working on an emotional level first, who knows.

The Universe is a reflection of you, so if you want your reflection to smile you have to be the one to smile first. The reflection has no option but to follow.

You probably won't get any new symbols for a while because you're not comfortable with what you have right now. Tell you what, on a completely different direction - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3oItpVa9fs
and
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BWWVgfI3Uk

The first one is interesting and the second one is more informative, and although it does say Sacred Geometry it only touches on it. What it all does though is help you understand where you're at now and what you're going through. What's in your consciousness and the energy shifts you're going through is giving you your emotions - which are energy and vibration in motion. Pyramids are built on Sacred Geometry and represent the geodetic centre of the earth - that is you.

Your feeling agitated is a shift in your energies/vibrations, as is your wish to be with your father. It's not unnatural, I've had the same on occasion. It's a reaction, your mind's way of trying to make sense of what's going on. Wanting to be with your father is a reaction to the raising of your vibrations - which is the whole point of the exercise by the way.

The emotional stuff will settle because it's caused by the difference in energy levels between 'old you' and 'new you'. When your consciousness and energies come more into alignment the differences become less - 3D being a dense vibration after all. So yes, 'neutral' is as good a word as any, and with the sphere being you the carellian is quite apt.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Please do let me know what you make of the album, I shall be most interested.

Patrycia

It's quite interesting listen to the album. Lately I've been doing a lot of retrospect and going through so much of my past with a fine tooth comb. And Twilight's been banging around in my skull for the past week so thanks for that. Not!!

It's really6 strange but there isn't s single track that doesn't reflect me in some way or another, and I know it sound pretentious but it's true. There are so many things going on in here that would sound pretentious but they're happening just the same. But I sit and listen to it and it brings me back to where I was then as though I was still going through it. It's kind of interesting to revisit yourself again, for the first time.

"One thing, all things:
move along and intermingle without distinction
To live in this realization
is to be without anxiety about non-perfection
To live in this faith is the road to non-duality
Because the non-dual is one with the trusting mind
Words !
The Way is beyond language
For in it there is
no yesterday
no tommorrow
no today"


VERSES ON THE FAITH MIND
by Sosan Zenji (Seng-Tsan) - the third Zen Patriarch.
Translated by Ricahard B. Clarke.

[dream jo]

xmas is 2 mush cormesld thes days it but pepel off it duz
thy hav thgn in widw abt sep
its lk estr thy hav on dsiply soon 31ths dec thy do

[Patrycia-Rose]

The symbols are quite easy if you shift your thinking a tad. The triangles are two relationships working together to make a third; for instance there's you, your trauma and how it's being a catalyst for both divine intervention and your visit to the therapist. Same with your relationship, trhere's a 'third thing' happening and it doesn't matter which one is at the top or bottom. The circle merely encompasses, your sphere of consciousness if you like.

Well, Mr G, it's been a curious week. No third eye activity during the last week and then on Friday night, the day before my third Bowen Therapy session, I got into bed and with an almost overwhelming strength, I saw an orange pyramid.

There’s an intensity / depth to these colours in the triangle which is hard to put in words. It’s not just a block of colour, it has a dimensional quality to it, as I say it’s hard to describe. When I received the treatment the following day, I saw this orange triangle again. I then saw a red circle within the orange triangle, expanding until the circle touched the insides of the triangle. It then changed to a red triangle with an orange circle. After a further set of manipulations I saw a white circle inside a black triangle and then later a black circle inside a white triangle. I noticed the changes in colour occurred after each manipulation. I also noticed as I looked down from the treatment couch there was a rug with triangle patterns on it.

And just this morning I awoke seeing two pyramids above each other; the top one clear and the bottom one red. I've noticed that these colour combinations are following the Aura soma system there is a clear over red bottle. I've just reminded myself of the qualities of the clear over red bottle and noticed that it is number 55 which numerically seems to suggest great changes are taking place it is also called the Christ bottle and that is my ascended master that I have made a connection with during the ' healing energy' phase.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equ...echrist .html

There's a relationship with you and Matt's material, which is catalysing you to put energy into writing it all down so you can remember it. So you have an energy system going on there - you're creating a critical mass.

This for me has been the most significant occurrence in the last several months and the learning that has come from this. I have heard of a critical mass and understand that this is matter and anti-matter causing an explosion. Please correct me if I have that wrong. And what would a critical mass potentially mean in spiritual terms?

Sometimes we can move past things in our heads or in our hearts but there's yet something inside that keeps us going back to that point for some reason. Often there is still something to be discovered there but there is always a reason.

In the last week, on two consecutive days, I have pulled the “this is your life purpose” oracle card. It does feel to me that certainly for the last 12 years my main focus has been healing from this trauma. There is a part of me that feels it is one, if not the main theme, of my life purpose.

Tell you what, on a completely different direction - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3oItpVa9fs
and
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8BWWVgfI3Uk

I've found this fascinating! In fact, I watched it several times. The first thing that struck me was the man introducing the video at 3.06 minutes was sitting with two large circles side by side behind him, just like the first symbol I saw on the Crystal. I have heard before that not all of our DNA strands are activated but I had not seen it so clearly demonstrated how the emotions of fear and love affect our whole genetics and the importance of emotions in cellular upregulation. I felt quite emotional at times watching this and it felt like much of the knowledge and research I've been doing for the last 12 years, is all there together in one place in this video.

I did not know about the solfeggio frequencies appearing in the Bible. But I have heard of the solfeggio frequencies as a few years ago I bought a set of tuning forks. Sound healing is something I have been interested in for a number of years in my endless quest to heal my trauma. I investigated tuning forks and discovered there were many different frequencies such as planetary tuners, ohm, otto tuners, angels tuners and body tuners, weighted and unweighted. I ended up getting a set of chakra tuning forks as although I knew nothing about tuning forks, I knew a lot about chakras.

The statement at 2.25 minutes about keeping people in low vibrational frequencies to enable them to be controlled, I agree with totally as I have reached this conclusion from another angle. My research and knowledge on nutrition, supplements and healing modalities told me that as equally important as the food you eat and the supplements you put into your body, is what you Don’t put into your body and what you avoid such as the toxins and chemicals that we are surrounded by in food, water supply, the air we breathe and the energy that surround us. I have learnt how to avoid this as much as possible, however I have also learnt in the last 6 months not to engage people in conversations about this because they either don't believe the little bits of information I give them or they are completely closed down so I now do not talk to people about this unless they specifically ask or show interest.

I also understood the Fibonacci number sequence and I can see how people can get really enthused about this particularly seeing that sequence reflected in nature.

On the subject of how love energy effects DNA, for me this emphasised the importance of Matt's teachings, particularly the importance of the “I love yous” and being kind to yourself, sending out blessings etc. In fact, this has made me choose the next video of his I will watch which is Love is the Only Answer.

I wondered whether activation of the shutdown DNA strands is the same thing as what Matt refers to as crystalline DNA activation?

I did try and watch a few other videos about sacred geometry but could not find anything that hit the spot!

It's quite interesting listen to the album. Lately I've been doing a lot of retrospect and going through so much of my past with a fine tooth comb. And Twilight's been banging around in my skull for the past week so thanks for that. Not!!

It's really6 strange but there isn't s single track that doesn't reflect me in some way or another, and I know it sound pretentious but it's true. There are so many things going on in here that would sound pretentious but they're happening just the same. But I sit and listen to it and it brings me back to where I was then as though I was still going through it. It's kind of interesting to revisit yourself again, for the first time.

I’m so glad that you’re getting something from the album. If you like ELO you can’t fail not to like this, there’s such a contrast between the tracks. One of my favourites is Another Heart Breaks.

All those references about returning to the 80s, I so feel that. Wouldn’t it be amazing to go back with the knowledge that we have now!

I saw a documentary about Jeff Lynne a few months back where they were saying his favourite colour is blue. That makes sense when you think about how many times that word occurs, Mr Blue Sky, Midnight Blue, Out of the Blue etc.




"

One thing, all things:
move along and intermingle without distinction
To live in this realization
is to be without anxiety about non-perfection
To live in this faith is the road to non-duality
Because the non-dual is one with the trusting mind
Words !
The Way is beyond language
For in it there is
no yesterday
no tomorrow
no today"

Ha! That reminded me of "today is only yesterday's tomorrow!"

Thank you, Mr G for your continued interest and support.
Patrycia

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Well, Mr G, it's been a curious week. No third eye activity during the last week and then on Friday night, the day before my third Bowen Therapy session, I got into bed and with an almost overwhelming strength, I saw an orange pyramid.

There’s an intensity / depth to these colours in the triangle which is hard to put in words. It’s not just a block of colour, it has a dimensional quality to it, as I say it’s hard to describe. When I received the treatment the following day, I saw this orange triangle again. I then saw a red circle within the orange triangle, expanding until the circle touched the insides of the triangle. It then changed to a red triangle with an orange circle. After a further set of manipulations I saw a white circle inside a black triangle and then later a black circle inside a white triangle. I noticed the changes in colour occurred after each manipulation. I also noticed as I looked down from the treatment couch there was a rug with triangle patterns on it.

And just this morning I awoke seeing two pyramids above each other; the top one clear and the bottom one red. I've noticed that these colour combinations are following the Aura soma system there is a clear over red bottle. I've just reminded myself of the qualities of the clear over red bottle and noticed that it is number 55 which numerically seems to suggest great changes are taking place it is also called the Christ bottle and that is my ascended master that I have made a connection with during the ' healing energy' phase.

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equ...echrist .html

Absolutely bonkers changes with you, eh? There's certainly a massive change in your energies coming off the page, interesting feeling though.

The symbolism is you and in some ways what is yet to come. The colours represent your vibrations, red and orange being very vibrant or 'hot' colours like the radiating sun, Which makes sense.

OK I need to skip to the end so bear with me because I'll come back.

Critical mass. When energy or mass comes together it creates a spin effect or a torsion field, think of a spiral galaxy or a black hole for a visualisation. It happens at the atomic level too, each atom has its own torsion field because it has protons and electrons, a bunch of them combined have a unified (that word is important) torsion field as does your body and so on.

The symbolism. The triangle represents three - Triplex Unity, Trinity.... etc. There is this, there is that and there is both; the relationship between this and that gives you a third - a result. The circle is your sphere of consciousness and it's inside the triangle, so the three of the triangle are 'external forces' surrounding (the circle inside) and working with your consciousness. Spirit and your Ascended Master (although he's one of your Soul Group) coming together to create 'you' as you are right now. There is a creation process going on.

The colours are the vibrations, red and orange are vibrant like the surface of the sun - which is a mass of seething energy - and they're close enough to each other not to make a huge difference. That works with your soma bottle too - and pink is a healing colour. By the way, have you heard of Christ Consciousness? There are very strong parallels between Christ Consciousness, what Matt said about Ascension being about bringing fifth-dimensional consciousness down (technically not accurate but close enough), trinity, threes, Sacred Geometry of the Vesica Pisces (overlapping spheres).

Put all of that together and you're creating a critical mass of consciousness/energy that creates a torsion field. By the way, you need to look closer at your therapist.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

This for me has been the most significant occurrence in the last several months and the learning that has come from this. I have heard of a critical mass and understand that this is matter and anti-matter causing an explosion. Please correct me if I have that wrong. And what would a critical mass potentially mean in spiritual terms?

Seeing as how we've covered this already.... I had to put all that stuff together earlier, sorry - they're all pieces of the same puzzle. Anyway, a bit more detail about torsion fields in general might help. What happens is that - as said above - the energy/consciousness 'mass' creates a torsion field or a spin like a galaxy or a black hole. All matter is energy and all energy masses spin, but most of the time it's hardly noticeable. What happens though is that there comes a time when enough energy/consciousness mass gathers that it 'jumps' to the next level. So, at the moment your consciousness is on the third dimension (just keeping it simple for now) but you're gathering all this extra energy and consciousness - helped by your healing - and it's creating a critical mass. What will happen is that it'll hit a certain 'amount' then punch its way out into the next level. An explosion if you like, of your consciousness out of the 3d consciousness. More accurately, if 3D consciousness was a glass sphere your nose would be pressing against it very hard and you'd be getting shadowy glimpses of what lies beyond.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

In the last week, on two consecutive days, I have pulled the “this is your life purpose” oracle card. It does feel to me that certainly for the last 12 years my main focus has been healing from this trauma. There is a part of me that feels it is one, if not the main theme, of my life purpose.

To put it simply you are your Life's Purpose because it really is all about you and not trying to reach some external goal that someone else has told you to reach. If it feels like that to you then yes, it's a part of your Life's Purpose. But don't forget that if that's how you feel then feeling it at all is significant.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

I've found this fascinating! In fact, I watched it several times. The first thing that struck me was the man introducing the video at 3.06 minutes was sitting with two large circles side by side behind him, just like the first symbol I saw on the Crystal. I have heard before that not all of our DNA strands are activated but I had not seen it so clearly demonstrated how the emotions of fear and love affect our whole genetics and the importance of emotions in cellular upregulation. I felt quite emotional at times watching this and it felt like much of the knowledge and research I've been doing for the last 12 years, is all there together in one place in this video.

I did not know about the solfeggio frequencies appearing in the Bible. But I have heard of the solfeggio frequencies as a few years ago I bought a set of tuning forks. Sound healing is something I have been interested in for a number of years in my endless quest to heal my trauma. I investigated tuning forks and discovered there were many different frequencies such as planetary tuners, ohm, otto tuners, angels tuners and body tuners, weighted and unweighted. I ended up getting a set of chakra tuning forks as although I knew nothing about tuning forks, I knew a lot about chakras.

The statement at 2.25 minutes about keeping people in low vibrational frequencies to enable them to be controlled, I agree with totally as I have reached this conclusion from another angle. My research and knowledge on nutrition, supplements and healing modalities told me that as equally important as the food you eat and the supplements you put into your body, is what you Don’t put into your body and what you avoid such as the toxins and chemicals that we are surrounded by in food, water supply, the air we breathe and the energy that surround us. I have learnt how to avoid this as much as possible, however I have also learnt in the last 6 months not to engage people in conversations about this because they either don't believe the little bits of information I give them or they are completely closed down so I now do not talk to people about this unless they specifically ask or show interest.

I also understood the Fibonacci number sequence and I can see how people can get really enthused about this particularly seeing that sequence reflected in nature.

On the subject of how love energy effects DNA, for me this emphasised the importance of Matt's teachings, particularly the importance of the “I love yous” and being kind to yourself, sending out blessings etc. In fact, this has made me choose the next video of his I will watch which is Love is the Only Answer.

I wondered whether activation of the shutdown DNA strands is the same thing as what Matt refers to as crystalline DNA activation?

I did try and watch a few other videos about sacred geometry but could not find anything that hit the spot.

There's some pretty bonkers stuff in here, but to kind of tie it all together....

Matsuru Emoto did a lot ground-breaking research on consciousness imprinting water and the patterns it creates - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAvzsjcBtx8
Now, considering we are walking, talking bags of water it makes you wonder what's going on - and it all leads back to your trauma. No not all of our DNA is activated but if it was and we were capable of all of the things that we're supposed to be? We can't even agree to disagree sometimes, and if our DNA was collective consciousness activated? Or we could use telepathy, superpowers.....??? So, is there a link between DNA and consciousness? There's a lot of what's called 'junk' DNA - or is that potential? It's also been said that our DNA has cellular memory, that we have the memories of our ancestors.

While we're here, we are carbon-based life forms. Crystal is a more complex form of carbon.

There's an old saying that comes to mind that used to go around in a forum I used to belong to - "Be Love, Beloved." So when you Love yourself Unconditionally, where does that put healing? Or is the need to heal a reflection of the need to Love yourself Unconditionally? If you put all that together - activating DNA, your changing frequencies, imprinting consciousness... - where does your trauma fit into this picture?

Solfreggio frequencies have been around for a long time, and while most think the Bible is just religious stuff it's actually a lot of hidden wisdom if you know how to read it. They knew about Sacred Geometry and much of Christianity has been borrowed from other belief systems, much of Jesus' teachings were not Christian but Gnostic and he is supposed to have been a Nazorean Essene.

The musical scale has its roots in geometry, the Platonic Solids and the Fibonacci Sequence and the Solfreggio Tones are tones which have a special sonic and and mathematical significance which many of the ancients knew about.

It can be emotional when you come to these realisations, when you and the Universe aren't butting heads any more. Emotions are energy in motion so it all goes around - so many pieces to this puzzle.

As a bit of a moving on from your tuning forks, check out "432 music" on Yotube then stick the headphones on and sit back. It's quite nice but watch out for the 528 because it's really trippy. There are also chakra and DNA activation tones too.

There's a lot of misinformation out there if not scare-mongering and people have been fed it for so long they don't know what to believe, the world and his cat have a lot to say about what kills you and there's plenty of it. I try to eat as best I can under the circumstances but I wonder if it gets to the point of being paranoid because there are limits as to what you can avoid. I think for most people the 'you are what you eat' is enough.

Fibonacci is also in your face - literally - and in your body. And the music you listen too. Oh, and don't forget your torsion field too. But it's kinda nice when these things come into some kind of harmony because it makes you feel as though you're a part of something bigger and better than yourself.

What Matsuru Emoto did was study the crystalline structure of water that had been imprinted by consciousness, and there are any number of images if you want some to look at but harmonic consciousness structures were always geometric patterns. And the geometric patterns in DNA??
https://d2gne97vdumgn3.cloudfront.ne...V1SNWWFcCAWXiS

If you've watched the Matsuru Emoto YouTube then you'll understand what Matt refers to as crystalline DNA activation.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

I’m so glad that you’re getting something from the album. If you like ELO you can’t fail not to like this, there’s such a contrast between the tracks. One of my favourites is Another Heart Breaks.

All those references about returning to the 80s, I so feel that. Wouldn’t it be amazing to go back with the knowledge that we have now!

I saw a documentary about Jeff Lynne a few months back where they were saying his favourite colour is blue. That makes sense when you think about how many times that word occurs, Mr Blue Sky, Midnight Blue, Out of the Blue etc.

To be honest I'd though I was done with music narrating my Life and what was going on inside it. At the time I didn't realise how much synchronicity was going on with what I was listening to and what I was going through, but was what often difficult to cope with is dealing with memories when things went sideways or with very emotional memories. If I could have gone back with what I know now I would have told myself that there were things yet to be realised in there. There again, there's something special in nostalgia right now and if I could have gone back I wouldn't have told. It feels right to keep it for this time somehow.

Yeah, there's something comforting about blue somehow, perhaps it's the healing properties. I always thought Geoff Lynne was 'one of us', there was this kind of resonance with him. Maybe one day.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Ha! That reminded me of "today is only yesterday's tomorrow!"

Thank you, Mr G for your continued interest and support.
Patrycia

Never thought of that but yes, it is reminiscent after all. I found a lot of Heep stuff quite Spiritual then although at the time I didn't know the word existed. The future does have its price and in some ways it's why I'm glad we have a linear existence, if I could go back with what I know now and know that there was a whole lot of hurt to come? How do you tell that to a 'past me'? If 'past me' knew would it still be willing to pay the price?

Suddenly the whole Universe makes sense.

As always, Patrycia, you are most welcome. Feeling alone isn't a nice feeling at all and knowing that even just one person knows makes a huge difference. And when you've been there you know why you did it the way you did, and it's all worth it.

When I was younger I was a very angry young man, and was advised to take up judo to get it out of my system. One night I was feeling particularly down and picked a fight with someone I should have left well alone. Of course I came off the worst and landed with a clatter, and it jarred my hip so badly it hurt for a few days. Many years later I had it X-rayed and was told there is a lot of wear and tear. It's been playing up recently, as if coming back to remind me as part of the nostalgia. During these past few weeks though it hasn't been quite so bad, still there but not so much of a major aggravation and having to be very mindful of how I move.

If I hadn't been there I wouldn't have been here.

[Patrycia-Rose]

By the way, you need to look closer at your therapist.

Mr G, this is really so important. Please can you tell me what you mean by this?

It's also been said that our DNA has cellular memory, that we have the memories of our ancestors.

Not only do we have the memories of our ancestors but we also have physical traits. Have you ever heard of a miasm? This can mutate as it comes down through the generations. I can see this in the my family, passed down from my grandfather to my father and to me.

As a bit of a moving on from your tuning forks, check out "432 music" on Yotube then stick the headphones on and sit back. It's quite nice but watch out for the 528 because it's really trippy. There are also chakra and DNA activation tones too.

I have listened to many of these Hz frequencies on YouTube. There was a particular 528 Hz which really made an impact when I first heard it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqaHNVgFTv4


You recall in an earlier post you said that things were going to get “more barmy”. Well, they have. It's difficult to know where to begin and I'm not thinking too straight at the moment.

After my Bowen session last Saturday, I awoke the following morning with what felt like a personality transplant! It is very difficult to describe it but for the whole week I felt that I did not care about anything, in a really extreme way. Except there were two occasions, one at home, one at work where I had an emotional meltdown in response to stressful situations which is most unlike me. There was virtually no third Eye activity during this time. I also felt strongly that this “spiritual stuff” was a complete waste of time and all these symbols are meaningless. After all, nothing has changed on a physical level.

I had a further session yesterday morning and immediately that feeling of not caring went instantly, thankfully. On the Friday night and during the session I saw two pyramids side by side, one pink, one turquoise. Unlike previous sizes they were small in comparison. In the Aura soma system pink over turquoise is the Birth of Venus. Meaningful or not meaningful, who knows?

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equ...ofve nus.html

So this morning, I feel the need to be still and quiet. I've been banned from running for the time being as the therapist believes my body is working very hard. I could not run anyway right now.

Interestingly, I am once again seeing the black and white crystal spheres I saw some time ago. And it has occurred to me this morning looking back on my experiences so far with the Bowen Therapy I think the black and white is me oscillating between two extremes. I'll try to explain what I mean. On the very first session, afterwards I felt several days of agitation followed by several days of being emotional and tearful. Many of the colours I have been seeing such as black and white, pink and turquoise, are balancing and Bowen Therapy is about rebalancing the system. There is a marked contrast between the left, feminine, side of my body and the right, masculine. And last week's not caring about anything and now today the need to be quiet and still, I think is a reflection of me oscillating between two extremes. Even my music is reflecting this. Last week it was Uriah Heep, Status Quo, heavy, angry music. Since yesterday morning I've dug out two Clannad CDs I haven’t listened to in years and Enya, and this seems to fit the bill perfectly. It seems to me, it’s all about yin yang, left right, black white, balanced unbalanced. This is all hypothetical but this is how it feels.

I've also been receiving some quite complex number sequences. Such as 134234, waking at 12.34.

The other development, which I find curious/a little upsetting, I have completely lost connection to Matt’s teachings. I haven’t watched any new videos, nor do I feel the need. I remember it all but I can't connect with it in the way I was. It all seems “not where I am”. I know that does not make sense, but right now my feelings are all there is to guide me.

I am in a very strange place right now, Uncharted territory, in a boat, on my own, trying to navigate choppy waters, with no compass to guide me, no lights in the distance.

I have decided that I am going to stop sessions for the time being and see what happens when all of this settles and just hope I’m still there at the end of it.

But there is a possible twist depending upon your reply about the therapist (please do PM me if more appropriate).

On a positive note, I think, I had a curious card selection this morning. From the Psychic Tarot I had ‘partnerships and alliances’. From the Healing with the Fairies ‘awakening to your true self’ and from Earth Wisdom ‘Heal Thyself.’

Patrycia

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Mr G, this is really so important. Please can you tell me what you mean by this?

Don't panic, but it's something that I'm 'passing on'. Very often we're reincarnated with the same Souls over and over again, sometimes we remember but more often than not we don't. What can be frustrating is when one remembers and the other doesn't. Are you sensing anything from your therapist other than just him/her being a therapist? It doesn't matter if you don't, for now it's OK to 'see through different eyes' as it were.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

Not only do we have the memories of our ancestors but we also have physical traits. Have you ever heard of a miasm? This can mutate as it comes down through the generations. I can see this in the my family, passed down from my grandfather to my father and to me.

Yeah, there's a lot that's passed on via genetics. My grandmother told me when I was a kid that having a bad chest was something that had been handed down through the generations to her and then to me.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

I have listened to many of these Hz frequencies on YouTube. There was a particular 528 Hz which really made an impact when I first heard it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqaHNVgFTv4

I'm a little bit wary of them sometimes because they can get quite trippy but this one's a little 'calmer' than most so I'll have a listen later.

Originally Posted by Patrycia-Rose

You recall in an earlier post you said that things were going to get “more barmy”. Well, they have. It's difficult to know where to begin and I'm not thinking too straight at the moment.

After my Bowen session last Saturday, I awoke the following morning with what felt like a personality transplant! It is very difficult to describe it but for the whole week I felt that I did not care about anything, in a really extreme way. Except there were two occasions, one at home, one at work where I had an emotional meltdown in response to stressful situations which is most unlike me. There was virtually no third Eye activity during this time. I also felt strongly that this “spiritual stuff” was a complete waste of time and all these symbols are meaningless. After all, nothing has changed on a physical level.

I had a further session yesterday morning and immediately that feeling of not caring went instantly, thankfully. On the Friday night and during the session I saw two pyramids side by side, one pink, one turquoise. Unlike previous sizes they were small in comparison. In the Aura soma system pink over turquoise is the Birth of Venus. Meaningful or not meaningful, who knows?

https://www.11essence.co.uk/shop/equ...ofve nus.html

So this morning, I feel the need to be still and quiet. I've been banned from running for the time being as the therapist believes my body is working very hard. I could not run anyway right now.

Interestingly, I am once again seeing the black and white crystal spheres I saw some time ago. And it has occurred to me this morning looking back on my experiences so far with the Bowen Therapy I think the black and white is me oscillating between two extremes. I'll try to explain what I mean. On the very first session, afterwards I felt several days of agitation followed by several days of being emotional and tearful. Many of the colours I have been seeing such as black and white, pink and turquoise, are balancing and Bowen Therapy is about rebalancing the system. There is a marked contrast between the left, feminine, side of my body and the right, masculine. And last week's not caring about anything and now today the need to be quiet and still, I think is a reflection of me oscillating between two extremes. Even my music is reflecting this. Last week it was Uriah Heep, Status Quo, heavy, angry music. Since yesterday morning I've dug out two Clannad CDs I haven’t listened to in years and Enya, and this seems to fit the bill perfectly. It seems to me, it’s all about yin yang, left right, black white, balanced unbalanced. This is all hypothetical but this is how it feels.

I've also been receiving some quite complex number sequences. Such as 134234, waking at 12.34.

The other development, which I find curious/a little upsetting, I have completely lost connection to Matt’s teachings. I haven’t watched any new videos, nor do I feel the need. I remember it all but I can't connect with it in the way I was. It all seems “not where I am”. I know that does not make sense, but right now my feelings are all there is to guide me.

I am in a very strange place right now, Uncharted territory, in a boat, on my own, trying to navigate choppy waters, with no compass to guide me, no lights in the distance.

I have decided that I am going to stop sessions for the time being and see what happens when all of this settles and just hope I’m still there at the end of it.

But there is a possible twist depending upon your reply about the therapist (please do PM me if more appropriate).

On a positive note, I think, I had a curious card selection this morning. From the Psychic Tarot I had ‘partnerships and alliances’. From the Healing with the Fairies ‘awakening to your true self’ and from Earth Wisdom ‘Heal Thyself.’

Patrycia

I'm going to reply to this part back-to-front because it'll explain what's going on. If you think about radio or TV channels, there's a lot of them all happening on one band but you only tune into one at a time, and the rest you don't know about. This is what's happening with you and Matt's vids - you're tuning out of that phase with them that you don't need them any more. It's not strange, it's quite natural and right when you think about it. Matt's vids gave you something you needed at that time - at that time - but this is no longer that time. What you need to develop/focus on is yourself and internal stimuli - the yin/yang if you're going to balance. Matt's vids are external teachings and you were ingesting them, they were external. What you need to concentrate more on now is the internal. If this is how it feels then this is how it feels and there's no hypothetical about it.

The extremes you're fighting against aren't the extremes you thought they were - the extremes that are causing you the anguish are the extremes of feeling versus mind/logic. Alan Watts says that when we lose our minds we come to our senses and this is where you're heading - it's uncharted territory for the mind that thinks it needs a chart. Your True Self has the chart, it's sitting happily on a satellite having a quiet titter at you while you're floundering about bouncing off trees in the valley because you can't see around the next bend.

Chart the territory, navigate the waters but un-choppy them, and you are al the compass you need. You have all you need and if you don't have it you don't need it, it's that simple. If all you have is you, you is all you need. Things don't happen to us, they happen because of us and that's a realisation that's worth thinking about. "Give me a tall ship, and a star to steer her by." Yeah I know, that's damned scary territory for you but welcome to my world.

It makes perfect sense, your feelings are all you need to guide you right now. What it doesn't make sense to is your ego - and I'm not giving your ego any bad press by the way. The ego is simply a sense of self in whatever shape or form that is - a sense of "I Am" as Jung put it. Your sense of "I Am" is very much changing.

You'll be there at the end of it regardless, but the big question is what kind of 'you' will you be??? This is happening because of you, because of who you are and where you're going. Life's Purpose if you like, Karmic Obligations etc... We're going to get there either because of or despite ourselves so you have two choices kiddo, you can accept your fate and enjoy the ride or you can kick and scream until you're blue in the face but the result is the same.

Your reality is defined by your perceptions, your perceptions are defined by your beliefs and your beliefs are defined by your definitions. You're defining your experiences as extremes, black-and-white..... Hypothetical.... You could just as easily define them as necessary, interesting, peaking and not oscillating... The head-centric Spirituality has been your peak for a long time but now the heart-centred stuff is coming through, which is emotional energy. And remember energy is a wave, so when you visulaise that it makes more sense. You're not swinging between extremes your energies are peaking - and it's not about positive and negative neither because those are polarised. Go with the flow.

What does your intuition/instincts say about the therapy sessions? Your mind/ego will rebel against this because what's happening is both major change and territory where it feels as though it hasn't had any control, where nothing makes sense. In that respect your ego is like a lost child, scared of what's going on - and yeah I know how it sounds but sometimes talking about it in this way helps. If you 'train your brain' to be more observant and less reactive it might help your situation, because what you're dealing with is more of a knee-jerk reaction. Tell your brain - literally - to shut up, sit down and take notes.

You'll have to see how the twist with the therapist works out for yourself because that's what this is all about, all I can say for now is that he/she is there for you and this experience whatever transpires. Essentially your therapist is there for you to have this experience in whatever shape or form it takes, and the important thing to note is that there are no rights nor wrongs here. We can talk again afterwards but for now I'm being stone-walled so you're very much on your own. Sorry.

Your cards make perfect sense. By the way, you did know Sacred Geometry is at play here? Partnerships and alliances are what's happening right now with your healing and understanding - obviously. The "Awakening to your True Self" is what's happening, which is your uncharted territory - there's no chart because you haven't created one. And you're the only one that can heal yourself because while physical hurts can be fixed, what's inside not so much.

Do yourself a favour and drop the positive and negative, it's polarised thinking and as a being of energy polarised you ain't. If it's not 'this' versus 'that' there's no need to balance the two, if there's just what there is in the moment understanding comes and you can be more in tune with it - and yourself. Energy peaks and troughs but it moves on regardless. Your agitation and your heightened emotions are indicators that your energies have changed, and the extremes are the levels ate which you have them. If your emotions are very high, that means your energy levels are. Similarly with agitation, it's a sign of the changes and not being used to what's going on. When things settle down again you'll become used to them and the agitation will disappear.

Heavy, angry music is low (not necessarily 'bad') vibration while Clannad and Enya especially are very harmonic and very complex. It's also worth noting that it's ancient Pagan-inspired music from the land of the Tuatha de Danaan, or the Children of Diana from ancient Irish mythology.

While we're doing the music bit there's a lyric that comes to mind.
"You ain't seen nuthin yet,
B-b-b-b-baby you just ain't seen nuthin yet."
Bachman Turner Overdrive.

Any loving is good loving so take what you can get, even though it comes in a helluvva whacked out package.

[Patrycia-Rose]

Don't panic, but it's something that I'm 'passing on'. Very often we're reincarnated with the same Souls over and over again, sometimes we remember but more often than not we don't. What can be frustrating is when one remembers and the other doesn't. Are you sensing anything from your therapist other than just him/her being a therapist? It doesn't matter if you don't, for now it's OK to 'see through different eyes' as it were.

Thank you, Mr G. I thought you were going to say be wary or similar. I had an experience years ago with a reiki therapist whereby she was hijacked by a spiritual energy and drained my heart chakra energy. It took many months to find a solution which eventually turned out to by some healing with a medium using crystals and fortunately it was returned. A very distressing experience and not an experience I’m wishing to repeat. I’m very aware that when you go to therapists you’re merging energies, aura energy etc.

So the twist to the situation is that when I went for my last session, I believed that was going to be the last appointment. Now, back in January when I went to see a medium, he gave me a name in connection with recovering from the trauma symptoms. I recall googling the name with various healing methods and came up with nothing. So I pretty much forgot about it. Then when I started going to Bowen, one of the names of the therapist was correct but the other wasn’t. So I thought medium got it partially right but on this last session (as I had nothing to lose) I asked about a middle name. Turned out that wasn’t right but as an explanation as to why I was asking I said I don’t know if you believe in this sort of thing but was told by a medium .....” etc. That gave her the green light to reveal she was also a spiritual healer and would I be interested in trying that. None of that would have come about if I hadn’t queried the name because only part of it was right. So I’m going to start spiritual healing in January. That’s true spiritual synchronicity.

This is what's happening with you and Matt's vids - you're tuning out of that phase with them that you don't need them any more. It's not strange, it's quite natural and right when you think about it. Matt's vids gave you something you needed at that time - at that time - but this is no longer that time.

I think you maybe right. I tried to listen to his new video a few days ago and I wasn’t quite grasping what he was saying, because I don’t think I was fully concentrating but I couldn’t be bothered to rewind and work at understanding. I find it curious, that for the last few months, it’s been really almost my sole focus but now I just don’t feel the need. I remember it all clearly, maybe I was absorbing it at a really deep level and have integrated it. I hope that one day I return but it’s not now.

Your True Self has the chart, it's sitting happily on a satellite having a quiet titter at you while you're floundering about bouncing off trees in the valley because you can't see around the next bend.

Last Sunday, in all the quietness of my mind, that made me laugh out loud which was a welcome sound!

Your sense of "I Am" is very much changing.

I agree with this, it feels now as if I’m on a journey inward. But maybe that would be a lot more scary if it weren’t for the knowledge I’ve picked up through Matt.


Last week, following the last Bowen session, I felt, it is hard to describe, a kind of neutral position. I did not feel angry, depressed, stressed, anxious, but nor did I feel enthusiastic, driven, motivated, or happy. I did feel quite calm and relaxed but this neutral feeling seemed very odd and no third eye activtity at all. Then on Friday night I woke about 1 a.m . and literally was bombarded with many different aura soma bottles, changing every few minutes. I have not seen such a pattern before but I saw clear/purple and purple/clear side by side I also saw B106, B107 and B109. I awoke the following morning and instantly felt that my drive and motivation has returned I felt my normal self again. In fact, the experience of being neutral (I didn’t even have the desire/motivation to run) has given me an appreciation of my enthusiasm and drive.

Your cards make perfect sense. By the way, you did know Sacred Geometry is at play here? Partnerships and alliances are what's happening right now with your healing and understanding - obviously. The "Awakening to your True Self" is what's happening, which is your uncharted territory - there's no chart because you haven't created one. And you're the only one that can heal yourself because while physical hurts can be fixed, what's inside not so much.

Choosing my daily cards has given me a sense maybe of what’s going on as well as some security. I keep choosing ‘clear the aura’, accelerated motion is another regular one.

Heavy, angry music is low (not necessarily 'bad') vibration while Clannad and Enya especially are very harmonic and very complex. It's also worth noting that it's ancient Pagan-inspired music from the land of the Tuatha de Danaan, or the Children of Diana from ancient Irish mythology.

The Clannad phase has passed for now. In the middle of the week, all I wanted to listen to was George Michael. But last night I was watching the last episode of Ashes to Ashes and the last song was Supertramp Take the Long Way Home and oh lord, I was back at college in 1979. I haven’t listened to that album in almost 20 years but this morning it’s been put onto the MP3 player and my, they don’t make music like this anymore! At the risk of prompting another journey back to the past, do you have that one, Mr G?

[akez24]

be what you want and dont let exceptions hinder desire. supersede criticism with pleasure and exercise self-love.