I want to "move on" from my twin flame

[HannibalLovesYou]

So after doing some work on myself, I've realised that I wish to finally move on from my romantic idealisation of my twin and I.

I've come to the realisation that despite the joy of the 5D connection, I'm not getting anything out of this relationship romantically wise, and I really don't want to neglect this aspect in my life for one person anymore, twin flame or not.

My twin flame and I are friends, but there's just so much holding back, mostly on his side, and now mine as well.

I've been struggling to maintain relationships (they only become short affairs now) with other guys because it's like the face of my twin flame appears in my head whenever I'm with someone for over a week. It sucks because I'm not getting what I need in this aspect for my twin flame (we've never been romantically involved, but we've expressed our deep affections for each other, and despite how borderline intimate we've been, his still "straight" to the best of my knowledge despite no visible dating).

I've been doing a lot of shadow work lately, and I've just started coming out of the Dark Knight of the soul. I've allowed myself to fully experience the desire I had for my twin without judgement, and I think I may slowly but surely be coming into a place where my spirit will be ready to seek the romantic connection I need, even if it's not with my twin. I'm starting to feel more comfortable with it, but I think I should wait a few more weeks before putting myself out there as to not hurt anyone anymore by appearing indecisive.

I'm also busy with my TEFL course as I'm hoping to move to China soon and start anew. I've never lived outside of my home country and I think the change will be needed.

I must say, the guilt I felt for leaving my twin here isn't nearly bad as it was before, and I hope it completely disappates as time goes on so I can live my life without obssessing over my twin.

[leader_of_ten]

If you've come to a place where you consciously desire to move on, you are closer to it than you might think.

[HannibalLovesYou]

Originally Posted by leader_of_ten

If you've come to a place where you consciously desire to move on, you are closer to it than you might think.

Yeah. I'm a very impatient person so I'm working on not rushing the process but letting it flow naturally.

But I'd really love to finally be in a place again where I'm not obsessing over getting my needs met by one specific person, twin flame or not.

[Meiotribe]

I’d say just go with the flow... I wasn’t like you: I didn’t want to move on because it was just so beneficial for me, but six years later and viola.... certain things just happened and I hardly have feelings for my tf anymore... so yeah. You can find my post on here titled ‘full circle’. I wrote in detail there what happened. At any rate I’ll try to help you. The key to letting go is...honoring the experience and person for how they helped you grow, but let go and trust that sometimes things don’t work out the way we want it to be and we can sometimes not mean to be together even if both parties loved each other to death. Their light and love will always sustain you through life even if you don’t feel it and vice versa.