Prayer and synchronicity

[Sarian]

I once had a dream when I became a Christian. I was not previously a Christian and I am not now a Christian. I do not believe in religions. I believe a time came that I did start going to church simply because I was to meet someone. That person is now an atheist. He used to be a pastor. Anyway, back to the dream...in it, I was walking down a country road and I looked over and saw a man laying in a manger. It was "jesus" I laughed and he laughed. He said he wanted me to have no doubt who he was. Long story short, he told me that he (God) meets us all where we are at...if we are Christians and believe in Jesus, he will show himself as Jesus, he will show himself in whatever form we believe. I long since left Christianity but I was also liberated from ALL religions. God is not religion.

You need to somehow pull the reigns in on your fear and anxiety over all of this. Is there a professional you can talk to? I don't think you will find the peace/relief you seek on any forum.