lonliness

[treesandme1028]

Hello All,
I am posting this because I just feel so alone but I know I am not.

I feel like I have given up so much of "normal" life the life previous to spiritual awakening process.

My physical body keeps having random problems and its happening rapidly. I gained weight due to this too. I am dealing with a new level of trauma. My family relationships have fallen off. I have lost many friends. I quit my job for health reasons. Now I have to move by Feb don't know how I am going to do that since I am barley making an income.

I am so afraid of the physical world.

I have gone through the darkness before but this time it's different.

For what ever reason I feel its necessary to go on because the random waves of spirit I get make it all worth it.


I feel so alone . There's no time table on an awakening but I am definitely going through it.

Does anyone have suggestions on that loneliness they feel when most people don't and cant relate ? Or how they go back to the real world if they are forced to .

[ocean breeze]

I can very much relate to that type of loneliness and fear. As for going back to this so called "real world" and functioning. I can see that being extremely difficult. Its like you have to constantly pretend all the time. And you get tired of pretending all the time just to fit in to some degree. I have no suggestions. I guess its one of those things you have to handle and get through on your own.

[jay.kishan]

During my initial days, i went through (Kind Of) same feelings and fear.
I want to add to this that spiritual awakening is not enlightenment but the first stage.
It Unfolds a whole process which you walk through. You process your past trauma, emotions or karma you can say.

I will repeat, its a process. Be patient. Be aware. Dont stress over anything. Let Go. And let it happen. It will pass too.

What i would suggest is to be aware, continue your meditation and live joyfully. Dont worry about it. Worry will make it worse.

Easier said than done. When youll realize things in this process, youll know that each part of this process was necessary to go through and there was nothing wrong in that :)

About going to the real world. We already are in real world all the time. What you call real world will transform itself . And the two worlds for you (spiritual and real/physical) will become one and youll find everything spiritual in this very real world .

Realx and Accept. You are on the right track :)

[Altair]

Originally Posted by treesandme1028

I feel like I have given up so much of "normal" life the life previous to spiritual awakening process.

People here will come at me with pitchforks and torches again, but... right there is your problem, above.

You think you are ''different'' from everyone else and don't fit in due to your ''spiritual awakening''. As a consequence it has made you lonely. I can tell you I experienced something similar back in the late 2000s after having mystical experiences. I felt ''different'' and eschewed some friends. That's stupid.

We all need to treasure and enjoy this world, and accept people are different. Also, what is ''awakening'' anyway? Ignore it. Continue doing a spiritual practice, or if you don't, then take it up. Meanwhile, don't eschew the world.

[hallow]

Originally Posted by jay.kishan

During my initial days, i went through (Kind Of) same feelings and fear.
I want to add to this that spiritual awakening is not enlightenment but the first stage.
It Unfolds a whole process which you walk through. You process your past trauma, emotions or karma you can say.

I will repeat, its a process. Be patient. Be aware. Dont stress over anything. Let Go. And let it happen. It will pass too.

What i would suggest is to be aware, continue your meditation and live joyfully. Dont worry about it. Worry will make it worse.

Easier said than done. When youll realize things in this process, youll know that each part of this process was necessary to go through and there was nothing wrong in that :)

About going to the real world. We already are in real world all the time. What you call real world will transform itself . And the two worlds for you (spiritual and real/physical) will become one and youll find everything spiritual in this very real world .

Realx and Accept. You are on the right track :)

everything you said is right on! Couldn't have said it better myself!

[zastrakoza]

Trees and me welcome to the forum! You have come to the right place.

I feel lonely a lot at moment too. This is my first Christmas without my gran. I miss her. My best advice for dealing with these type of feelings is grounding with mother earth. She is constant, she loves and nurtures you, she is everywhere you go, and she stands by and supports you through thick and thin. Hard to feel lonely with that. Let her strength carry you when you gather the courage to look for work or find a place to live.

Z

[Brucely]

These are especially hard times. Whats old is departing and by april we should be in a new age

[BigJohn]

Originally Posted by treesandme1028

Hello All,
I am posting this because I just feel so alone but I know I am not.

I feel like I have given up so much of "normal" life the life previous to spiritual awakening process.

My physical body keeps having random problems and its happening rapidly. I gained weight due to this too. I am dealing with a new level of trauma. My family relationships have fallen off. I have lost many friends. I quit my job for health reasons. Now I have to move by Feb don't know how I am going to do that since I am barley making an income.

I am so afraid of the physical world.

I have gone through the darkness before but this time it's different.

For what ever reason I feel its necessary to go on because the random waves of spirit I get make it all worth it.


I feel so alone . There's no time table on an awakening but I am definitely going through it.

Does anyone have suggestions on that loneliness they feel when most people don't and cant relate ? Or how they go back to the real world if they are forced to .

From what you wrote, we are almost opposites but then.....

When I was your age and younger, I had no friends. Nobody wanted to be around me. I was deeply into my own World. For example, I used to go to this one gorge (canyon) that had wall that were straight up. The ledges you would have to jump from one to another ledge were only 2 - 3 inches wide. Below was deep, fast moving water. One slip and you would be dead. Recently I checked on the internet and it claimed no one has ever been able to go up and down the walls of the gorge (canyon). Well, I knew better.

During that time period, I got much enjoyment out of the thrill of almost dying from the things I loved to do.

So, how does this relate with you?

I should have sought out medical help but I never realized such help might be available.

Something that helped me is I like to go now to McDonald's and have met a lot of friends. I have one friend who is very much like you. We have been known to sit and talk for as much as 8 hours. He claims he has no friends but now claims I am his friend. Surprisingly, he looks forward to meeting me at McDonald's. Maybe something like that could happen to you. It takes time to 'make it work'. Remember, this is only a suggestion.

If you have been experiencing these feelings for some time or been having bouts of such feelings, I would highly recommend seeking medical help. There is no reason you can not enjoy life.

I wish you the best.

If it means anything, I have 'waved my magick wand' your way to help you see thru the 'cob webs'.

Please be kind to yourself.

[Shivani Devi]

Originally Posted by treesandme1028

Hello All,
I am posting this because I just feel so alone but I know I am not.

I feel like I have given up so much of "normal" life the life previous to spiritual awakening process.

My physical body keeps having random problems and its happening rapidly. I gained weight due to this too. I am dealing with a new level of trauma. My family relationships have fallen off. I have lost many friends. I quit my job for health reasons. Now I have to move by Feb don't know how I am going to do that since I am barley making an income.

I am so afraid of the physical world.

I have gone through the darkness before but this time it's different.

For what ever reason I feel its necessary to go on because the random waves of spirit I get make it all worth it.


I feel so alone . There's no time table on an awakening but I am definitely going through it.

Does anyone have suggestions on that loneliness they feel when most people don't and cant relate ? Or how they go back to the real world if they are forced to .

I am so sorry to hear about your experiences, but there is always a light at the end of that Dark Night of the Soul Tunnel.

After a spiritual awakening, we are often forced to reassess our own life priorities..it is pretty much a par for the course.

As a result, we tend to gravitate towards our own "tribe" of like-minded people to avoid those feelings of existential loneliness and we also realise that even a lot of so-called "spiritual people" are not those we would choose to associate with either.

Our tastes, beliefs, lifestyle, etc often become SO refined, we need to actually go out of our way now to find a place where we can "belong" or "fit in" but once there, we will shine like the brightest star because the environment is commensurate to our own spiritual needs and we can grow into the experience, instead of constantly fighting it because the world just cannot understand...well, most of the world won't, but some will and it takes effort to find these precious souls...but they are there.

Do a personal inventory to find your core values and what you are interested in...what makes you feel happy, comfortable and at peace in a social setting?..it may involve joining a Landcare or environmental group, doing volunteer work, joining a yoga class, going to church... whatever you enjoy doing alone, you can also enjoy in mixed company if you are activity focused more than socially focussed...all of that will happen later when others notice you are just as passionate about the same things they are passionate about...but human beings are very slow to come around, make new friends or gain trust and so you also need to be incredibly patient.

I wish you all the best.

[davidsun]

Originally Posted by treesandme1028

Hello All,
I am posting this because I just feel so alone but I know I am not.

I feel like I have given up so much of "normal" life the life previous to spiritual awakening process.

My physical body keeps having random problems and its happening rapidly. I gained weight due to this too. I am dealing with a new level of trauma. My family relationships have fallen off. I have lost many friends. I quit my job for health reasons. Now I have to move by Feb don't know how I am going to do that since I am barley making an income.

I am so afraid of the physical world.

I have gone through the darkness before but this time it's different.

For what ever reason I feel its necessary to go on because the random waves of spirit I get make it all worth it.


I feel so alone . There's no time table on an awakening but I am definitely going through it.

Does anyone have suggestions on that loneliness they feel when most people don't and cant relate ? Or how they go back to the real world if they are forced to .

For whatever stimulus value this may have, quoting from a footnote in my treatise:

"It is because they have ‘spousally’ embraced The Flow of Life Itself that Cosmically oriented and committed individuals don’t think of themselves as being ‘alone’ and no longer feel ‘i’solated even when they aren’t with others who are especially ‘in synch’ with them, the way people who haven’t yet done so naturally do. As the apostle Paul testified: “I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from [The Flow of Life Itself].” (Romans 8:39); albeit, instead of the words I placed in brackets, he said “the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord” to express what he meant because of the particular way in which he conceptualized what said words reference."