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Originally Posted by Taking a Break
I assume suicide isn't a pretty experience and because of a point of no return a lot of people die, if it was possible most suicide victims would change their mind in the last fraction of the last second.
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That is not the case for me, there was no regret at all and not even now, the only regret I have is that I survived. I had been so at peace when I really thought I was going to die so regret I did not.
I guess those who do things like this when they don't really want to die eg those who go to suicide due to trying to do something like punish someone probably would have regrets in those final moments for me though I was doing it as an escape or have a break from incarnation (I sometimes feel so tired of all this bull**** of this planet) and it felt so peaceful to really think I was doing it and it was going to work.
I slit my wrists.. and just watched myself bleed out thinking how pretty the redness of that blood was while listening to the sound of blood dripping on the floor, it was peaceful like listening to rain drops, no fear, no regret. I was really enjoying what I thought was my last moments of awareness, I went to sleep thinking I would never wake up but did and was then deeply disappointed ***sighs*** My wrists needed stitches and a dr actualy like super glued me all back up.
The other time I took an overdose which should of killed me.. and once again no regrets at all and I just ended up going unconscious and ended up being found unconscious on the floor by someone. I live alone but some how someone from online had notified the police when I'd said goodbyes to friends in another country even though they had none of my real details .. some how I was found and my location was traced by authorities. I suppose throu the ISP link to the website.
I ended up in the ICU for a week as being unconscious on the floor for so long and this situation, from doing that. When I came around I was in the ICU and I had double pneunomia from doing that, so needed to be on an antibiotic IV (not that the double pneumonia bothered me, I have severe ME/CFS so having double pneumonia was not even as quarter as bad as the ME/CFS and the discomfort I'm often in due to that) . Once again the point right up to me loosing consciousness was peaceful. I certainly was not feeling peaceful when I took the drugs and was very emotionally messed up but closer things got to becoming serious, to loosing consciousness, the more peaceful I felt and my last thoughts were of complete peace. If that is so so bad, why did I not feel regret? It did not feel bad at all in those last moments of being conscious even my deep inner being felt at peace that all was fine.
Anyway based on my own experience, I doubt most suicide victims regret it if they really wish to die, at least while they still have some life in them maybe they do once they have passed but obviously I did not get that far
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