Energy is just all over the place the last few days!

[sunflwrdanzr]

I posted a bit ago about my TF being around me energy wise, telepathy like, when I make love to my husband. After posting that, it was better except he showed up in dreams instead every time. Oh well. Then yesterday the dog we got together for our son 6 years ago had to be put to sleep and he and the kids were coming back from out of town, not close, kids did not get to say goodbye. He just told them just now and I'll see them in a few hours. I'm sure it'll be even harder when they're here and seeing that the dog isn't. I'm just so down and sad. It's really getting me. It was hard as well because we did have the dog together and I took him into the vet on our old comforter. Like the last thing, death of that marriage, but the connection lives on. Sigh. It's just all over the place!

[LadyMay]

I'm sorry about your dog, that must have been hard

Take some time out to grieve and tackle the rest of things at a later date... you can use the time to ask yourself where you want things to go... the key word I get from your post is 'change', what do you want changed? What do you want to see in your future? What good can you give yourself? Can your marriage be saved? Ect. Create what you desire to see... letting go of the old is hard, but bringing in the new is a great feeling.