Energy question .. loss of energy

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Hi everyone! I feel weird asking this, probably because I have never been on a forum like this. Anyways, my whole life I have had pretty strong intuitions. They are super random where I will just know something (could be random, or not). I have no control over the knowing (or not yet) and would love to tap into it more or be able to direct it to what I want but it never goes like that for me. It’s always out of the blue! Any ideas on what to do or study to become more in tune with my intuition? Also, in my past (when I was single) I had multiple partners tell me that my skin felt different and that it felt like light was coming off my hands when I would touch them. It was bizarre since they weren’t into that kind of thing and they would all say the same thing. My hands really tingle at times like if I finished a good yoga class. I have noticed when I am pregnant and breastfeeding (currently), it as if I lose it all! I’m not sure if whatever the energy is goes into making and feeding the baby, but all the times I’ve had babies it is this way until I am done nursing and then it slowly returns back to normal. Just thought I’d ask for insight here, or possibly how to get in touch with it again while I am breastfeeding. Thanks for listening. :) I have tried googling this kinda stuff in the past and I don’t get any answers lol