I hope you don't mind me asking your opinions and advice! I have had this good friend for about nine years and we have always gotten along but there has never been any romantic attraction between us.
Over the last year, I have been literally to the ends of the universe and feel as though my personality and outlook has changed immensely from everything that I have been through. I have become spiritually awake and died from my old self / my old life if you like.
Well, I met up with this friend again for the first time in a few years the other night, when we went out to the pub for a drink and a chat.
It was completely unexpected but as soon as I saw him, I had all of these sudden, intense feelings for him, and felt immediately as though he was 'the one'. I would never have thought in a million years that I could ever think this about this friend.
So all of this is very strange and I am struggling to come to terms with it. It was just supposed to be a casual social event as always, and there I was having these brand new, impractical feelings right out of the blue.
So, I repressed my feelings, thinking that I am probably just unwell at the moment, I am just recovering from a nervous breakdown and have been starved of social contact, that I must just be experiencing some kind of catharsis with this friend because I feel safe with him.
But, some weeks later I feel exactly the same and am starting to consider that this is true and legitimate, the feelings are real.
The thing is, this guy is just going about his happy little life, completely oblivious to the fact that in a split second life on my end has been totally uprooted. I cannot seem to help it but have been thinking constantly about it, soaring light years into the future, wanting to grow and develop the situation way beyond any practical level.
So.. my question is, how on earth do I tackle this situation? He's oblivious to how I feel, and I am in anguish trying to repress all of these increasingly deep and intense feelings.
Thanks in advance