i feel lonely

[inthemiddle]

i needed to communicate with somebody..

this world seems no longer a fit

i've evolved yet this world doesn't evolve.

why am i still here?

this world seems like a dream simulation.

it almost seems like i'm talking to computer programs

my experience is that all paths lead nowhere.

[knightofalbion]

A very warm welcome to the forum, dear soul.

Hope you find a brighter day ...

[inthemiddle]

Originally Posted by knightofalbion

A very warm welcome to the forum, dear soul.

Hope you find a brighter day ...

thanks knightofalbion!

[tanya1979]

Welcome hun. Does your username inthemiddle have a meaning?

I saw it and thought of Jimmy Eats World.

I hope you start feeling better.

Welcome xx

[O]

Welcome :)

[inthemiddle]

Originally Posted by tanya1979

Welcome hun. Does your username inthemiddle have a meaning?

I saw it and thought of Jimmy Eats World.

I hope you start feeling better.

Welcome xx

i've gone through a process that has changed me.

i can see the archetypal sides to this world. i see symbolism, metaphor, allegory, phonetics of this simulated dream world.

one side is Mother EGO archetype with new age eastern spirituality, veganism (vagina), we are one, Jeb Bush/Hitlery Cliton (female genitalia), no guns etc.

other wise is Father EGO archetype with religious God programming, meat-eating (penis), guns, dualistic, Donald Trump (as in Trump card).

i'm more in the middle because it feels more a fit.

i can SEE everything about this world. i can't be around people because i SEE everything about them. i can SEE into the script.

in my experience beliefs are designed to keep you as the pavlovian dog chasing its tail in circles.

this world seems very mechanical and manufactured with highly contrived and transparent scripting.

the more you SEE the more you are messed with. i've had many magical experiences and many nasty experiences.

in my experience this world is scripted by the TRINITY of Mother, Father and Son and free will and choice is an illusion

i experience complete control and i can see the script before it happens.

ignorance is truly bliss

i evolve but the patterns remain the same.

[inthemiddle]

Originally Posted by Olivia13

Welcome :)

hi olivia!

[inthemiddle]

this process i've gone through has left me pretty detached.

i feel no resonance with my given name and history

i feel all spread out and undefineable

[tanya1979]

I see the world as it is. Might be for the better.
I see free will as free will and not an illusion.

Maybe to some it's a smoke screen, kind of like smoke and mirrors.

I like it that way though.

[inthemiddle]

Originally Posted by tanya1979

I see the world as it is. Might be for the better.
I see free will as free will and not an illusion.

Maybe to some it's a smoke screen, kind of like smoke and mirrors.

I like it that way though.

the ego identification blinds people to the truth. ego identification makes you think you are in the driver's seat.

even in the legalese of Maritime Law a people or person is a Corporate fiction. that's why the USA Supreme Court ruled that Corporations are people too, hence the word CORPse.

i saw that people were the walking dead when i was 17 years old.

based on my current experience free will is a lie and all my choices are controlled.

people seem controlled and scripted just like in a computer program.

many times it seems i'm interacting with computer programs and not real people (oxymoron)