People find my negative energy repulsive

the problem is sexual jealousy...has anyone dealt with it?

Endless Nameless, Sooner or later, almost everybody deals with jealousy, whether or not it's related to sex or anything else. Human beings are put together in such a way that they get to experience a wide range of emotions, everything from the highest highs of joy and love to the gut-wrenching lows of anger, hate and jealousy.

You seem to think that you are in some unique situation, but it's not like that. Lots of people, including myself, have experienced jealousy and all of those other things.

Much of what life is about is how we handle both the positive and negative situations in our lives, and you seem to be stuck in your self-predicated victimhood. From the limited information we have about you, it sounds as if a girl you care about got drunk and had sex with somebody else.

Dude, things like that can and do happen in life. Guys like Ted Bundy would probably have a few ideas about how to deal with a problem like that, but, hopefully, you are made of much better stuff.

Wonder how much he enjoyed it