Hello!!

[SethCrozier]

Hello~ I’m Seth, and I am 18.

Throughout my childhood, I was deeply traumatized by my parents, even until I was 18. Years of internalizing mistreatment had made me very mentally ill by the age of 11. There were some long periods (3-10 months) I had as a teenager where I was not depressed, but The trauma had not been processed and my behaviour was still entirely affected.

On some day early in july, in the summer of 2018, after being at a dead end for a couple months, I decided to think of a solution. I realized that I thought of myself as inferior because I was not meeting the expectations of other people for things that were not important to me. I had many revelations that day, but to sum it up; I realized I deserved to be happy and that my life is my own. I realized how many of my principles and behaviours didn't serve me in any way. This was the day I broke free my unconsciousness (I am still so shocked that this happened in one day haha).

This change in philosophy coincided with myself getting closer to my friend and her grandmother who are both very spiritual people. They were the first people to speak to me about spirituality firsthand. What they told me made sense, whether I believed it or not. Until this point, I had been entirely atheistic, but as I knew spirituality didn't want anything from you, I was very open to it. At this time, I was also reevaluating all old patterns and trying new things. I started to live treating some spiritual beliefs as truths. For example, I went to a new school for my current semester of high school (I got no credits in my previous year due to lack of attendance due to big depression), I went to a new school. There were 6 people who really stood out to me, that I wanted to meet and I had classes with none of them. I really put it out there energetically to the universe that I wanted to meet these people. In 5 months, I had met all 6. I spoke to 2 of them on my own, but for the other 4, it just fell into place(2 spoke to me first, one was met through a mutual friend with no coordination and one was another one's sister haha). This one event was more than enough for me to decide that spirituality had a place in my life.

I started to adopt more principles, (Ex. The energy you have is the energy you attract) treating them as truths and continued to notice positive changes in my life.

In my case, I have decided that it doesn't matter whether it's real or not. I choose to believe in principles that can be applied to our world in a logical way that make for a better life for myself and the people around me. I know it will make for a substantially more interesting and fulfilling life as well. That's really all I want; an interesting, fulfilling life where I make a positive difference. (I do believe in it anyways)

That catches you up to where I was at a couple months ago. Since then, I have been constructing positive patterns, eliminating judgement & biases, raising consciousness and healing. At this point, I have become conscious enough of my emotions, that if I get angry, upset, resentful, I can let go of that emotion very quickly (These emotions are diminishing though).

I am amazed at the progress I’m making, and I am so grateful for it.

I have joined these forums to find wisdom, make friends and converse with like minded people. I'm excited to be here, sooooo nice to meet ya :))

I have made peace with what happened in my childhood, I only told that story to contextualize the start of my spiritual path :)

I have never written this down, so I really enjoyed typing this :) thank you for reading :))

(I hope that was coherent, please ask if you want me to clarify anything)

[7thSign]

Hi Seth

Welcome on this forum. I am also new on this forum. I've read what your wrote here above. I've had a almost similar storyline. For me it started 11 years ago and I am much older then you. It's nice to meet you. ;)

[Chrysalis]

Greetings Seth and welcome to SF!

[Uncarved Block]

Thanks! I appreciate your welcome.

[Uncarved Block]

I'm new too! Sounds to me as if you are on the right path.

[taurus]

Hello Seth,

Welcome to the forum. I'm new to it too and it's fun to read around and hear about other peoples experiences.

Originally Posted by SethCrozier

In my case, I have decided that it doesn't matter whether it's real or not. I choose to believe in principles that can be applied to our world in a logical way that make for a better life for myself and the people around me.

It seems like you have a very objective and healthy way of looking at things and that's super helpful for personal growth. What doesn't work can always be discarded but it takes great deal of self-awareness to know what isn't working for you. I didn't have those tools at 18 and for many years well into my early 20s I didn't realise I was attracting insecure people because I myself felt insecure. I also developed a sense of inferiority that linked back to treatment from parents but it's great you're feeling better =]

I also noticed you're using what is called Law of Attraction. It's super fun to put out requests to the universe for things you want to happen and then have them materialise.

Again, welcome!

[SethCrozier]

Originally Posted by 7thSign

I've had a almost similar storyline. For me it started 11 years ago and I am much older then you. It's nice to meet you. ;)

Nice to meet you, 7thSign ;)

It's always interesting to find you have things in common.

[SethCrozier]

Originally Posted by taurus

Hello Seth,
I also noticed you're using what is called Law of Attraction. It's super fun to put out requests to the universe for things you want to happen and then have them materialise.

Thank you for the thoughtful reply, that was very interesting.

Learning to utilize the Law of Attraction has been so gratifying.

Thank you to everyone for the welcoming :)

[Home remedies]

Hi Seth, welcome to the forum!

[Taking a Break]

welcome,
I have seen many storms in my life. Most storms have caught me by surprise, so I had to learn very quickly to look further and understand that I am not capable of controlling the weather, to exercise the art of patience and to respect the fury of nature.
-Paulo Coelho