Well... once friendships cross certain boundaries and people are led to believe there is only circumstance keeping them apart... It is wrong in my opinion to string them along by withholding the things that would give them what they needed to be able to move on emotionally. It's pretty manipulative really... My feelings, wants and needs matter too... It's not just all about him keeping his options open.
Yet all the while he is calling and waking me up nearly every morning and every time I would say we weren't meant for each other responding with, "You never know"... Why try to cast that doubt? Keep me clinging to something when he's moved on?
I'm a big girl I can handle the truth.
I never expected him to be hung up on the idea of us forever... and having been married to a pathological liar for 3 years... I'm pretty sure I already know the truth. But if he doesn't think I deserve it... then, I can't justify the time and energy I put into that relationship anymore.
Or as he called it our "Tomato" since he refused to label our relationship with any of the conventional tags...
... and then when I would get angry at him it was his Big Red Angry Tomato...
... I really loved all that...
... so many memories...
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