My NDE

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I was in a coma. I knew that my family and friends were upset. To me i was taking a break. Resting. Deciding. My aunt who passed away about 6 months previous was there. She told me i could stay with her as long as i wanted. I'm not saying this was not a serious situation to anyone because it was obviously. I had a 'very stormy' time i was told in intensive care. I was out of my body communicating with one doctor telling him what to do. Then i stayed still.

The first NDE I was in a cannon going miles and miles out to sea. I landed in the bottom of the ocean. I knew that if i did not go back to this life, i would have to go back again in a new life and learn my lessons again. So i went back. I had no beliefs on reincarnation before this.

Another experience I turned away from everyone. I turned and walked down a beach. I felt huge relief and freedom. My family and others who were so important to me. I still loved them but i had to be myself.

When i became conscious I was so angry with the medical staff for upsetting my friends and family. As to me i was resting! I seen love everywhere. I seen the good in people and everything. When i was transferred to a regular ward people kept commenting on how well i handled myself, my mood and everything that had happened to me. I was not afraid.

Also whilst i was in the coma 'something' within me began to speak. When it spoke to my mind it always referred to me, as we. Thats why i believe God is within me. I was not afraid and peaceful. I dont like to speak for others, but i guess G is within them too. I had no religion i connected with before i became ill.

There are not many of the old people I am close to now since my experience. I guess they experienced my death. I never got a prognosis after months of tests. I have no plans on going anywhere but i understand it is hard for others and their feelings. Within i feel strong. I have 'chronic illness'. I have learnt and i am learning all kinds of healing methods and healing myself. I hope to help others heal one day. I had an aneurysm which was contained whilst i was in intensive care. They said they would have to remove it once i was stronger. I had no intention of going back in there and asked the aneurysm to leave. It disappeared on my scan results.

After this experience, one has to fit in with society again. Day to day life goes on. I had to learn to protect myself. The sensing of love everywhere, i still have it but i know i need to protect it. I saw a relative who passed one morning in my room. I said i was not ready for that. I had too many changes to adapt to. I was talking to people about their relatives who had died. I didnt know why i hardly knew them. It made them uncomfortable.

Overall i would say this experience made me become my true self.