Ego, Friends and Family

[XalosJuryin]

I am starting to realize that Ego gets so much in the way of harmony (unless we know hot to work with it).

I am feeling positive right now. I tuned into a moment of spontaneity – the here and now – and this allowed me to be simply loving to my mom.

Usually, I would be like: "Oh, what is it that she is going to say now?" or "Urgh...I wish I had more privacy."

But instead, I was feeling present and hugged her and everything was okay.

I am hoping that I can be like this with my dad. He is the one that my Ego most creates fear with. He is not scary or aggressive in any way; I am blessed to have such a father, he is the best. But whenever I see him, my mind creates expectations and anxiety. I keep waiting for him to criticize me on something, or to order me around. I will grow into a better person if, when he does something like that, I am able to realize that there is nothing to fear and instead just notice my reaction to what he is saying.

Part of my goal with spirituality is to strengthen my relationship with my parents and friends. Being adopted when a baby and having a very different personality from theirs has caused me to feel a little uneasy, but with the feelings of connectedness that I have been experiencing lately, I should know that there is more to it than being reactive.

Does anyone have similar thoughts/issues?