Need Spiritual Guidance

[Dandru15]

I'm hearing a few voices some telling me that I'm dead and some that I'm alive and to repent for my sins. I'm seeing nature change before my eyes like rivers rising and ripples going in every direction like a spirit lays over it, clouds shaping into real pictures, and trees morphing and shrinking. When I focus its kind of like a story when I watch it. Even behind my eyelids I can see bodily figures, color, and shape.
Before this all went down I was forced into mental hospitals and drugged three of those four times. I never mentioned hearing any voices or seeing anything out of the ordinary. As it happened and I saw but still did not mention those people changed in their eyes.. enlarged pupils and tones and gestures. Also saying "Praise Baphomet" Wind picks up around me when I pray with my heart and I can hear my voice through the air. Some people yell and cause a pressure of something moving inside my ear. When I look forward I cans see a clear figure next to me. These voices offer me cars, money, and houses if I say "Praise Baphomet" I'm not about to do that. I believe in God and Jesus as my lord and personal savior and recently picked up the bible. They stick their weird tongues out at me when I'm not looking directly at them.
This has been going on for 6 months that I can account for. I've been screened for psychosis and schizophrenia.
I am neither, these things are very real. I need a spiritual guide. Lastly, I have even been seeing "Astral projections" and "star castings" both things I've never even heard of until these voices explained it to me.
I have a video of it as well.
I need serious believers to reply!!

[firstandlast]

You are coming to know yourself; I am sorry that this may be frightening and confusing; but should these two different angles become one in the same, that which is hidden will become revealed--

You can consciously Praise Baphomet and know that in its proper place, it is properly worshiping the highest; This is going to happen, because by understanding this, when Christ returns to bring everything in order; you will know yourself to speak in foreign tongue so that the Christ may truly forgive you-- But if you do not commit those sins that you believe you are not part of, you will not see why you are in need of forgiveness; because as long as you are trying to the right thing, but do not know the right thing because your vision is imperfect; than when something that is telling you to repent for your sins is also on the other side telling you to commit a sin; than let us be clear, you are a sinner; but that you do not understand sin as to properly repent, for how can you regret what you do not know you have done? And so remember that you are already forgiven, but that in order to know that forgiveness; than you must commit the sin until you are truly forgiven; and that this is not just personal, feeling forgiven is merely one aspect; but that such a thing effects those around you, in ways that; well I suppose you can indeed imagine, but beyond that as well--

So how can you repent, if you do not align with your sins; and this is the truth; how can you consider yourself forgiven if you are afraid to sin again-- Think deeply on this, for I do speak a foreign tongue and speak of matters, that Christians of the beast would detest, but that I detest that innocence; because though completely innocent of the accusations upon themselves, still have not known true judgement; because none of them have ever been fit to judge--

[JOHNTY]

Greetings Dandru15,

Who or what is BAPHOMET to you?

Have you read: Dogme et Rituel de la Haute Magie ?

[vespa68]

The voices sound like illusions to me! Real spiritual guidance would not sound like that. Even real mediums don't hear or see the truth necessarily unless they have done some deep inner work and know their true selves. However you may have some abilities that you need fine tune. Perhaps try meditation.

[firstandlast]

Originally Posted by vespa68

The voices sound like illusions to me! Real spiritual guidance would not sound like that. Even real mediums don't hear or see the truth necessarily unless they have done some deep inner work and know their true selves. However you may have some abilities that you need fine tune. Perhaps try meditation.

Any person who does not suffer from the cause preaches the snake oil to the sick, like a common doctor who treats the symptoms, they are luxury for the pimp; but that the hardest path is the one of great pressure; because regardless of the aim, the way is going to the treasure. Misled in general, like the swirling currents of a pond almost stagnant does repeating the same order bring. But that the original order, never repeats even if it says the same thing. Cuz your heart does not respond to forms, but your relations; but the mind can turn pleasure into fear depending on how we relate to it. And that if you lut pleasure below anything but the highest beauty, that you have seperated the same thing, and will not resolve the conflict by your own doing.

[vespa68]

Originally Posted by firstandlast

Any person who does not suffer from the cause preaches the snake oil to the sick, like a common doctor who treats the symptoms, they are luxury for the pimp; but that the hardest path is the one of great pressure; because regardless of the aim, the way is going to the treasure. Misled in general, like the swirling currents of a pond almost stagnant does repeating the same order bring. But that the original order, never repeats even if it says the same thing. Cuz your heart does not respond to forms, but your relations; but the mind can turn pleasure into fear depending on how we relate to it. And that if you lut pleasure below anything but the highest beauty, that you have seperated the same thing, and will not resolve the conflict by your own doing.

Um thanks for the poetry? Hopefully you had good intentions because I was only trying to help based on experience!!