What do you want to say to your Soul Connection/Twin Flame? Express it here! - Page 75

Realm Ki · #**741** 08-11-2018, 09:14 PM

Thx for the reminder that my TF (?) is looking for me, wondering where the h- I am..

(I believe our messages here are both our own messages to each our love - but also channelled/borrowed by other TFs. To get messages across to their TFs, reading here. As many senders as there are readers
.. ).

FallingLeaves · #**742** 08-11-2018, 09:54 PM

well i knew how bad it had been for me but still had enough respect for what you were showing me not to want to drag you into my problems.

After all this I don't honestly know how it could have worked though, if I hadn't given up and thrown in the towel the one time it would have mattered.

But I haven't forgotten either, that people seem to wait around for me to give up so that they can say 'if you had just gone along a little further you would have gotten the prize. But now it is too late so you might as well not try'. That is one of many many mean things that just BURN.

So I can't honestly say to myself you would have done what you did, either, if I hadn't desired to give up at just that point. And all the rest (shudders).

Sigh.

FallingLeaves · #**743** 09-11-2018, 02:31 AM

FWIW we probably couldn't get together at this point. I'll never be able to get past the way you've treated me... and even if our status did change (something I really can't expect despite the rosy outlook you are giving, again) I would just be sitting there waiting for the other shoe to drop, again.

Dearest I don't honestly believe you can help yourself. And I don't think I want to deal with that after all the effort I've had to go through and for what?

Sigh.

Realm Ki · #**744** 09-11-2018, 10:08 PM

We start again. Each in our own world. Looking for clues, for the little things that just for a second melt our icy hearts. We go alone in parallell universes, looking reluctantly for spring, out hearts tired from crying and hardened from hurt.

But if I let you walk alone this time - and allow me too to go, spring's an invincible power all we really need to do is to stay and not shy away.

And then there will be summer, whether we like or not at all.

M.Tesla · #**745** 10-11-2018, 12:47 AM

I dont regret a thing <3

FallingLeaves · #**746** 10-11-2018, 02:40 AM

all i really wanted, was not to be forced to hurt.

you made it worse, not better.

One of the things I was always doing was believing you could change.

But looking back, you never once did.

Always the same.

And still I want to believe you would.

Another part of my hell.

FallingLeaves · #**747** 10-11-2018, 02:50 AM

I wish I didn't have to be this way.

But it is never going to get better.

Sigh.

M.Tesla · #**748** 11-11-2018, 12:07 AM

It feels like tonight I'm finally letting myself feel what's been being suppressed since you left... and now I understand why because the pain of losing you yet again, hurts more than I am wanting to cope with right now.

On top of that, my catalysts birthday just passed and I couldn't even reach out to her, so that hurts too.

I hate this time of year so much

FallingLeaves · #**749** 11-11-2018, 04:32 AM

well at the risk of nagging, I'll just say it isn't at all fair of you to ask me to believe in you, when that has been a disaster every time I tried to do it.

If that is the price of admission I just don't want it.

Ziusudra · #**750** 11-11-2018, 09:53 PM

Hey,
Sincerely from the bottom of my heart, I wish you to have a wonderful and peaceful journey.
Do not hesitate to open your heart and fell in love with another person/woman (being PC).

I hope that person loves, cares, and respects you the same way that you will for that person.
Be a good dad to your children and enjoy every moment with them. I know that you are and will.
Do not let our connection drag you down anymore, really, don't. Unnecessary.
Do not waste anymore of your time, energy, etc to it.
Let go of any grudges that you have on me, seriously. What is the point in that? um? Time to grow up a little, don't you think?

Love, be loved, be healthy, and just be happy.

It would've been so much fun if we had became friends.
Imagine, all things that we would talk about and notes that we would compare. Not to mention, we could even test our connections. What fun! it would been.

This was just my selfish wishful hope, not yours.
However, I understand that you are not able to. That is OK. I accept your honesty.

Since we can not even be civil and be friends, I do not want you to focus too much on our connection.
We will always have that, no matter what we do to it, as you already know by now.

I am suppose to help you in this life and I am sorry that I am not a good helper.
Maybe through our connection, I already helped you or maybe not.
I can not really help you anything beyond this since we obviously have remained as strangers.

Too be very flank, even we are friends, I am too exhausted with my own life to help you at this point. I need to save and help myself first.
I have to take care of myself from now on.
But this is the life path that my soul had chosen for this incarnation. So, I just keep going until.

Be good and be happy. Ok?
Don't be alarmed if I become distance and disconnect. I will be submerged with my own life and I don't know when I will revisit our connection in this life time.

P.S. Sorry about the gift thing. I hope that you did not get into too much trouble with it. Keep the gifts -You know that already. I wanted you to have something tangible of our connection. I hope that helped a little.

Good bye for now.