hey JustForToday, thank you very much for your reply. I was told that adage about the mirror of ourselves before and I found it to be true and try to keep it in mind, but a reminder is great, thank you.
but I must wonder when it is an issue of what to feed our daughter (nevermind ourselves or each other) and a matter of one pure fresh live food and a plastic pouch of dead deoxygenated food made in a factory, what am I supposed to do? it's fair that I don't want my baby consuming the latter, right? I understand that people may disagree with me about a lot, but that is common sense. although it could also be brought into the equation that I eat too much food I'd consider dead still. I know I can't wait for support to make the changes I want but I'm sure you can understand it's hard, especially when the modern misguided lifestyle is hard.. but anyways I do try to eat a lot of fresh fruit/food, however I also as I said am afraid of running out for the baby so I can't eat as much as I'd like to.
I'm just trying to see how the mirror reality fits in this situation. I don't think I am doing anything constantly that my fiance asked me not to that is harmful for the baby in any similar sense. there are things that he didn't want me to feed her much of or at all and I abstained from feeding her certain things most of the time because of it, but there are also some unreasonable requests about things he is oblivious about and won't take the time to research the truth about. such as this supergreen powder moringa which there are scientific studies validating the health of. he said he didn't want her to have too much b12 from it cuz of cyanide, as b12 is known as cyanocobalamin, however I discovered that cyano- is the term for the synthetic b12, not the real version present in plant matter, or derived from bacteria anyway.. but most sources say moringa doesn't have b12 anyways. but yeah so I think my trying to share that almost pacified him but he still seems a bit scared of it so I don't give her much. he let me add it into the formula he makes eventually. but I'm trying to offset the damage from the bad things he is giving her. I don't understand why he doesn't want to make her fresh smoothies or feed her a real mango instead of a sick pouch?
with what you say in your last sentence, it's inspiring but still makes me wonder what I do in the meantime when it's something as important as controlling what good or bad things my baby eats. Like I think you are right and I know we can't control people but there's got to be some kind of switch when we simply cannot allow something we know is terrible. when it comes to our own children at least there should be. if it's easy or even easier for us to control the situation for the better (these pouches or jars of food cost sometimes more than 4 times as much as just getting real food, and I also voluntarily make her fresh food so it's not like he has to make it all anyways.. but why hasn't he at least just once made her a fresh fruit smoothie? He gave her banana a few times cuz his Mom introduced it to us earlier on, but he only did it a couple times)
anyways, I know that simplicity is the best path to many things in life so I also know the answers mostly lie in me working on controlling whatever I can with myself. part of the issue is me not working or providing money or buying the groceries and stuff.. so if I did I could try filling the baby up with enough fresh food where she won't be hungry for a subpar bottle or food he tries giving her. but I can't control everything he or his mother try to give the baby. but why don't they want what's best for her if they really love her as I know they do so much??
part of the mirror would be me not fixing my diet enough to have my milk be less acidic for her, as it's said most mother's milk is considering what we eat.. and I also had issues producing enough but sorry for going on so much. If I'd made more better milk early on I could've prevented her being fed formula and other stuff so much. but when she's off of my milk then I can't control as much. I do care for her most of the time though, she's mainly my responsibility of course. but I don't feel I get the respect or authority I need and deserve. or appreciation for what I do and have done. and my fiance feels I don't regard him the same with what he does working and stuff but I do and have supported and cheered him on and helped where I could sometimes. I do appreciate him so very much but he also makes it hard cuz I feel like he regards me as undeserving and a burden, etc. I really don't ask for much. almost every fight we has involves him not having listened to me and being unwilling to learn and grow with me and help ourselves and the baby be healthier and happier. then he does consume some toxic things all day long and is in a sick state himself so I don't know. but I guess even if I can figure out ways to control the livelihood of my baby better, I still have to work more on myself and that should be my main concern in order to let everything else fall in place easier. I am going to reread your post more than once in the near future, thank you JustForToday =)
*that's interesting how you mention we are the mirror for others.. and in ways well I feel like I've had "powers" specially for helping others see their darkness or issues and how to fix them in bring them to the surface to get rid of them. I know people commonly resent these interjections though. but anyways that isn't what was brought up for me when trying to think on the comment you said. I would love if you want to elaborate on that. I mean does that automatically mean that we have to become more negative to reflect when we are in the presence of someone else with a lot of negativity going on? because a mirror situation is two sided you're right. well lol picturing a two mirror situation is another story hmmm and how many mirrors are there in each mirror being reflected back and forth. ah I think in my um Mayan Astrology there is some mirror symbolism, like I am a dark mirror but it's my purpose to become light. oh yes I found the site, one of my signs there is White Mirror. I will share it in case you are interested and want to check out your own Mayan Astrology profile. I am pretty heavily into 'western' Astrology but really liked this too. if you do check out the stie and need help navigating let me know, I think you have to click on the sign from a separate list after you input your birth info and get it. I am Red Lunar Dragon
http://www.starroot.com/cgi/daycalc.pl
"White Mirror is your Compliment - something that comes naturally to you.
White Mirror represents the Hall of Mirrors, where you can face your own reflection and see the truth about yourself. As a mirror, White Mirror merely reflects what is, whether truth, beauty or illusion. Here you can face unfinished business, the dissonance of difficulties, or charged issues that would keep you from the full expression of your Divinity. Become aware of any illusions or distortions within yourself; your clarity of perception will transform them. Take a moment to see yourself as you actually are, shadow and all, freed from the maze of mental illusion.
Sometimes you may find yourself reacting rather than freely responding to a situation or person. If you have charged reactions such as frustration, anger, fear, judgement or jealousy, look at how you might be projecting these issues onto someone else. The world is the mirror for you to truly see. Any strong reaction to a person or event signals an issue to work on in yourself. Be willing to examine and utilize what you see in your mirrors, in order to transform dysfunctional belief systems, negative thoughtforms, and fixed patterns.
In the Hall of Mirrors there is no good or bad, no right or wrong - there is only the reflection of what is. As you learn to see yourself, you begin to see your emotional reactions as signs indicating where to focus your awareness for growth.
On this quest, come prepared to face White Mirror's sword of truth and purification. The wisdom of this sword penetrates, exposes, and ultimately heals your illusions. Discrimination is tempered with love cleanly cuts away everything that does not serve your evolution. To the Maya, White Mirror is the flint that hones your sword.
The greatest gift of the sword is the power of forgiveness. A profound freedom emerges from forgiveness, the releasing of the illusion of cause and effect. Use the great gifts offered in this blad of truth and light to forgive and release anything you may judge or see as imperfect.
You are already an Enlightened Being!
White Mirror's are able to clearly reflect others back to themselves once their own mirror is clear."
Again, thank you very much for replying to me and giving me somethings to think about. only reply if you feel like it of course, and you are welcome to tell me anything negative you see if you want to
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